Needing our true Substance – Faith

April 4th, 2014

Needing our true Substance – Faith

We are all contingent beings – creatures that do not exist in and of ourselves but depend for our existence upon some other being.  The BEING that we are totally dependent upon is GOD – and GOD has approached you and me in Christ Jesus dear one – HE gives us our substance – HE is the Substance of things Hoped for – the Evidence of things unseen!  HE is the GOD ALOINE who comes and looks upon our sufferings – the GOD ALONE who comes and walks with us – approaches us in the trials and sufferings of this Life to show us that He is not some “remote and unfeeling being” – GOD IS GOD – and that means for us – PRESENCE – it means GOD SO LOVES.

We lack a vocabulary to express this as we ought to express this – we are able only to feel the LOVE and respond as contingent beings to His Mercy-Love!

Why dear one, why is it we suffer s much in Life – or at least believe ourselves to suffer, as we believe ourselves to suffer?

Well, it is because Faith is the substance of things Hoped for – the Evidence of things unseen, as the writer to the Hebrews outlined the great examples of Faith in Hebrews 11.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.  For by it the elders obtained a good report.  Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.  By faith Abel offered unto God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, by which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts: and by it he being dead yet speaketh.  By faith Enoch was translated that he should not see death; and was not found, because God had translated him: for before his translation he had this testimony, that he pleased God.  But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”  (Hebrews 11: 1-6)

Dear one, we are called to diligently seek HIM who is the Substance of our Faith!

What does this mean to “diligently seek GOD”?

It means that we must be serious in our simple intention to Love GOD and one another – for GOD so Loves us that He gave His Son for us – and our response must become “seeking GOD” through the simple intention of Loving GOD and His creatures, as GOD so Loves us!  FAITH responds in LOVE to GOD who so Loved us!

GOD, you see, demonstrates His Love toward us while we were yet sinners – therefore, as sinners who have come to Him in true contrition, we are called to BE and BECOME in HIM the new creations He calls you and me to BE in Christ – and like Enoch and all the examples of Faith – we walk with GOD.  Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.  For by it the elders obtained a good report . . . But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

Perhaps, we might see this better, as we suffer in time – for all suffering brings us to understand that we cannot approach GOD – but that GOD approaches us to show us in our weaknesses how much we do as contingent beings NEED GOD ALONE.

You see, we need GOD and we need one another.  We bear one another’s burdens – and give comfort to those who must bear their own load, because we are all alike in our contingency.  We are the children of GOD through FAITH in CHRIST JESUS our Risen LORD!

Again,  the little soul is touched often by the Hand of GOD in these times of sorrow… we rejoice in the Presence of Jesus and His Intention of Love toward us — a sinner He Loves — therefore we Love Him and others in Him, abba

Wherever I am, as soon as I raise the eyes of my heart in my affliction to God, the Lover of men immediately answers my faith and prayer, and the sorrow immediately departs. He is at every time and every hour near me, only I do not see it, but I feel it vividly in my heart. Sorrow is the death of the heart, and it is a falling away from God. The expansion, the peace of heart through lively faith in Him, prove more clearly than the day, that God is constantly present near me, and that He dwells within me. What intercessor or angel can set us free from our sins or sorrows? None, but God alone. This is from experience.

st john of kronstadt

Dear one, before going away until Thursday, we take time here to proclaim that GOD is infinitely greater than all our sins — that He alone Loves us and calls us to simply Love Him and one another as the contingent beings that we are!  In brief — Love God and Love one another in Perfect Love — for God so Loves you and me.  Our simple intention ought to always BE LOVE!

abba anthony the repentant sinner


More Reflections from the Hermitage — March 2014

March 28th, 2014

Putting to death that “old man”

(Hermitage of Mary, 11 March 2014, 0200)

Sometimes, dear soul – just sometimes we must be strong enough in GOD;’s Strength to completely break off all relationships with souls who bring back memories that drag us down into doubt, despair, depressing with anxieties!  These matters are rare of course – for our friends often recognize these things and refrain from such distractions.  This speaks well of these precious souls.  We all must be aware of what we say that may detract from GOD’s Presence in the eyes of another soul.

We must draw close to GOD – we must allow others and encourage others to draw closer to GOD as well!

The solitary soul understands the pain of doing this “breaking off” – this Loving of others from a distance – but it is required of a soul in order to come closer to the walking with GOD that is desired above the terrible clamoring – the din of Babylon.  GOD calls each of us to the walking with GOD, as Enoch walked with GOD – walking in the open spaces of the wilderness with Mary.

The old man is the “false self” – it is all that is a distraction from GOD – even the news that comes every hour on the hour is a distraction (we can do little about it but pray) – but, Babylon persists in telling about everything they want to in order to make us worry…worry and worry some more!  The news also brings to mind the memories of the past (similar to current events) – for all tests are “common to mankind” – to worry about these draws us away from trusting GOD.  – Especially when we focus upon the anxieties that are past, making them again present and more powerful that GOD?

The old man persists – like the cat with the ‘nine lives” it “lives on” – but the memories must be healed by GOD through the death of the false self – resurrected in Him who is our New Life!  The self you see is SELF centered – but, as a new creation in Christ we are to be and become GOD centered!

O, dear GOD – give to the little soul the gift of forgetfulness of the anxieties of the past – put to death this old man.  The answer we receive from our Beloved is found in the words of St. Paul in his Epistle to the Romans 8: 12-15:

“Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. For if you live according to the flesh, you shall die: but if by the Spirit you mortify the deeds of the flesh, you shall live. For whosoever are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. For you have not received the spirit of bondage again in fear; but you have received the spirit of adoption of sons, whereby we cry: Abba (Father).”



When I am down – GOD is Present

(from the hermitage of Mary 16 March 2014)

We are fragile souls in bodies of clay and water (jars of clay, earthen vessels) – but little souls that are Loved by GOD, when we are un-Loved by all others – rejected souls – souls alone in GOD – Beloved of GOD our Beloved One – even when we are sick in body, soul and spirit – YET, we are Loved of GOD – though fragile – sustained in that fragility – maintained and renewed in the Spirit of GOD’s GRACE and MERCY.

O, the depth of His Mercy-Love that allows us the foretaste of the Divine Glory that will say:  Worthy is the Lamb that was slain – He has Redeemed us from every nation and tongue by His Grace.

O, Happy Day!



Alone with GOD in his Beloved

(The Hermitage of Mary, March 16th, 2014)

“I have become like a pelican in the wilderness, like an owl of the desolate places.  I lie mute and mourn like some lonely bird on a roof.  All day long my foes revile me; those who hate me use my name as a curse.”  (Psalm 102: 6-8)

My GOD and my All – I am no longer abandoned – for my Beloved took upon Himself the abandonment He knew alone upon the Cross – and the little soul was there – and then freed from his abandonment, but sees even now that his “little soul” sits alone in silence – the Silence of GOD (in GOD) for GOD has placed him there (cf. Lamentations 3: 28) – alone with the pelicans and owls (the sound of the mourning birds abounds in the silence) – identified by vocation with those who come to GOD alone as sinners – those who have come without fanfare – lonely souls that are also beloved by GOD – our Beloved One – these come as they are – in His Humility.

O, Jesus – Divine Mercy – we trust in you dear Master and First Love.



I am thinking of His Silence

(Hermitage of Mary in the Wilderness, March 17th, 2014) 

(There is entirely too much that distracts us through memories of the past that persist – that refuse to “go away” – too much blaming and not enough “letting go” in the Silence that is in GOD alone – this is the draw of the Hermitage, where we can forget those distractions through simply remaining in Silence and Solitude, laying aside the “cares” at the feet of Jesus.)

I am thinking of the Silence of GOD –

The Silent Sun-rays that shine on this sod

That I am – and I become this Silence

That brings in it Rest and true Patience –

Especially when I wait upon my LORD Jesus.

His Word is always Present in this Silence of GOD –

His Joy is in the darkness where GOD is lauded,

Even when I do not feel so happy in human terms.

The angels “feel” the Silence in a Way that I cannot comprehend,

As the time moves forward to the Parousia of Jesus.

The pelican and the owl are at home in the desolation

That surrounds us – and there is His deep Consolation

In this Silence that does not give way to the noise

Of life the comes from Babylon’s shortened days –

In the midst of noise – there is also Silence in Jesus.

O, lonely soul – forsaken by the world – my Consolation

Is that we are together in this Silence that is JESUS our Salvation.

HE is more Precious than all the gold of Ophir –

The Solitude and Silence speak His Name: thus, dispelling fear,

The entangling snare – when Perfect Love is near in Jesus.

Ah, GOD alone – GOD alone – GOD alone – our First Love

Comes closely as the night nears us with sounds of mourning doves

He speaks to us of Perfect Love and comes here in the Silence of GOD –

And now the Silent Moon rays of the night shine softly on this sod

Again that I am – the pelican and the owl now Silent in the night 

And, closing now, we ponder Him in the darkness where His Light shines –

Brightly and near – within this new creation in the Name of JESUS.



It does not matter

(Hermitage of Mary in the Wilderness, March 17th, 2014)

It does not matter that other souls believe a soul alone with GOD to be a fool or madman.

It does not matter in the end if we are victims of injustice (painful injustices) or people marginalized by others who make judgments about us that are false, partially true of completely true!

What matters dear one is whether or not we repent of our sins and are truly contrite before GOD.

We are called to sit alone in the silence – for GOD has placed us in the place of silence alone with GOD alone.  We seek to use our tongue too often to justify the self – the false self.

A story was told by the desert fathers –

“Abba Joseph asked abba Nisteros, ‘What shall I do about my tongue, for I cannot control it?’  The old man said to him, ‘When you speak, do you find Peace?’  He replied, ‘no.’  The old man said to him, ‘If you do not find Peace, why do you speak?  Be silent, and when a conversation takes place, prefer listening rather than to talk.’ “

Dear one, the little soul has found day after day the sad commentary of Life that only a few are interested in this Truth – preferring rather to justify their own actions over accepting their own sinfulness.  Therefore, the conversations had are filled with NO Peace – only speaking words of condemnation – things to justify the false self – while refusing to focus all conversation upon the Prince of Peace – our True King of Righteousness.

How I long for Peace in the Silence I know and return to weekly.

Only Jesus you see is Worthy of all Honor, Glory and Praise – He is best listened to in the Silence that He dwells in on the Throne – He sits now – enthroned.  May we enter into that Rest – the Peace that passes all understanding.



The cries from a thousand nights

(Hermitage of Mary in the wilderness at 0115 on March 18th, 2014)


I have heard the cries, dear one, of a thousand nights

Alone in the stillness of the heart – with a thousand lights

Shining in the darkest night – the moon shining forth the Luminary

Sign that GOD made for the soul to rule the nights with Mercy –

Mercy that comes to dwell with us as the Comforter in this desolation –

Where the little souls are often hurt and plagued by man’s rejection.

BUT, GOD has made a Place there for the holy people, a remnant

Of her Seed – O, Jesus – the cries of a soul who desires Peace, repentant,

Mourning for the loss of better times – and yet dear one the Best

Of time and eternity has come to him who found his Perfect Rest

In GOD alone – a little solitary one who sees through a dark

Glass – and comes again to know in His desert Place the Ark

That Noah, Enoch and Moses knew – now renewed in HIM

That came as Man to be our Sufficient Sacrifice for sin!

O, Jesus – who am I and why the cries that have sensed the pain

Of such rejection from those beloved?  I quietly strain

To understand this pain of past remembrances in time –

But, have quietly and cautiously refrained from “living” in those times.

The newness of Life in Jesus has brought the man of failure

To the Land of Mary’s wilderness – to that vision much fuller

Than what we had before the failures and the deepest pains.

There in His Solitude we find our Savior and True King on the plains

Of Montana’s Big Sky – star shining as Abraham’s Silent Witness

To our Loving Savior’s Victory and the Sun of Righteousness’s

Soon descending in that Day with healing in its wings!



The world’s “cast aways”

(Hermitage of Mary in the wilderness, 0300, March 18th, 2014)

We are “cast aways”, much like a kitty that has been rejected by its former owner – who then finds it lives a new life with a new fellow cast away in the Place GOD has prepared (for us all).  I sit looking into the big “discerning” eyes of this kitty that we have at the hermitage.  The world sees us as “cast away” garments or things to be thrown into the refuse bin to be buried out of sight and out of mind in some sanitary landfill.

GOD does not treat us in this manner though:

We are the “cast aways” of men, living our Life in Christ Jesus in His wilderness –

A Place prepared by our Gracious GOD for Mary and the Seed’s remnant. 

We are all little souls that came to GOD through Jesus in His Simplicity

To Love Him reverently and simply as little souls who have forsaken the duplicity

Of the world of Babylon’s Pride-filled and “lofty kings” and potentates –

These are the “larger souls” in their own minds who proclaim their magistrate

Powers over all other souls here – in the present age – as if they owned heaven and earth.

O’ GOD – Master and Savior GOD – that we might all see JESUS only as our True King!



The GOD of all Comfort

(March 26th, 2014 from the hermitage of Mary)

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort.  Who comforteth us in all our tribulation; that we also may be able to comfort them who are in all distress, by the exhortation wherewith we also are exhorted by God.  For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us: so also by Christ doth our comfort abound.  Now whether we be in tribulation, it is for your exhortation and salvation: or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation: or whether we be exhorted, it is for your exhortation and salvation, which worketh the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer.  That our hope for you may be steadfast: knowing that as you are partakers of the sufferings, so shall you be also of the consolation.”  (II Corinthians 1:3-7)

Sometimes we think we are alone in our sufferings – but take heart – GOD is with us especially.  GOD shows us dear one as to why we are sometimes “troubled” – it is “so that we can comport those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from GOD.”

You see, the sufferings of Christ actually flow over into the Life we (each one of us) have in Christ Jesus – and this is true especially for the whole Church, as each of us are part of the whole – for “no man is an island” – you see – just as we experience Christ – “so also Christ our Comfort overflows.”

Why is this so easy to forget, when we are troubled?

Why is the spiritual memory so brief?


It is because Babylon seeks to “have us” as we walk as pilgrims through this valley of sufferings – the valley of humiliation – the valley of the shadow of death – the valley of “troubles” – the “trials” that beset us always in the present age.  WE forget Jesus’ troubles quickly and cry out to GOD for help!  But, wait dear one – perhaps, the ‘trouble” is our “help” – remembering that “GOD demonstrates His own Love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”  (Romans 5: 8)

You see, dear one, perhaps, the greatest Grace comes even when we are receiving these “troubles” even as Christ embraced and received His Cross.

Are we not also called to take up our cross as well?

“If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me.”  (St. Luke 9: 23)

Perhaps, dear soul this for us is a part of walking like Enoch walked with GOD alone?



Humility rather than Greatness

(March 27th, 2014 from the hermitage of Mary)

And there entered a thought into them, which of them should be greater.  But Jesus seeing the thoughts of their heart, took a child and set him by him,  And said to them: Whosoever shall receive this child in my name, receiveth me; and whosoever shall receive me, receiveth him that sent me. For he that is the lesser among you all, he is the greater.  And John, answering, said: Master, we saw a certain man casting out devils in thy name, and we forbade him, because he followeth not with us.  And Jesus said to him: Forbid him not; for he that is not against you, is for you.  And it came to pass, when the days of his assumption were accomplishing, that he steadfastly set his face to go to Jerusalem.  (St. Luke 9: 46-51)

The Churches have much to learn from this prayer dear one – as we all have much to learn and do, when listening and becoming doers of the Word of the LORD – for these arguments continue.  Some have even “de-friended” the little soul, because I would not immediately “accept their Church” – but, dear one, GOD knows our heart – the heart of the little soul is in Love with Jesus – with GOD alone – and he is apostolic, catholic and orthodox to the core!

Dear GOD save us from our brothers and sisters who mean well.

There is a terrible sense dear friend that many cannot seem to comprehend the message here.

Who is the Greatest?

The little child?

Not really, even though it is good to come as a little child to Jesus.

The Greatest is he that welcomes “this little child in My Name – the one who welcomes Jesus welcomes the One who sent Him.

Remember dear one St. John 5: 24 – look it up and reading it, memorize it and repeat it often inside your Prayer of Jesus!

Let GOD then be the Judge as to whom He receives – for He has already received the little child, even when the apostles were a little upset over His Receiving the little one.



When just saying “I love you” is not enough

(From the Hermitage of Mary – March 26th, 2014)

It is never enough to simply mouth the words – “I love you” when your heart is far from the Love that is GOD’s Love – the Love (agape’) that cares as GOD cares for each of us in fellowship with one another – the Love that demonstrates His Love toward us sinners – the death upon the Cross kind of Love!  HE remains Present – yet, HE does not audibly speak to us – to our physical ears – HE is Present in Perfect Love – showing us His Love in every category of our being and becoming in Christ!

GOD Loves us dear one – GOD Loves us from the Cloud of Unknowing in the WAY He has revealed Himself as the Perfect Love that He Is.  He is the Love that casts out fear, when we draw close to our Lover and Beloved One.  He is that Love that never fails!  (cf, I Corinthians 13: 4-13)

Listen again:

Love suffereth long, [and] is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not its own, is not provoked, taketh not account of evil; rejoiceth not in unrighteousness, but rejoiceth with the truth; beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Love never faileth: but whether [there be] prophecies, they shall be done away; whether [there be] tongues, they shall cease; whether [there be] knowledge, it shall be done away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part; but when that which is perfect is come, that which is in part shall be done away. When I was a child, I spake as a child, I felt as a child, I thought as a child: now that I am become a man, I have put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know fully even as also I was fully known. But now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; and the greatest of these is love.

It you want to define WHO GOD IS – then ponder this description of Love.  Love is manifesting the Person of GOD – the Triune Essence of GOD – and yet, we have Justice and His Attributes that neither add nor diminish this Love.

LOVE never fails dear one – but when there are prophecies, they will cease, etc – and this means that all these things necessary in a physical universe that is passing away – these things will someday become un-necessary – BUT, Love will never ever fail (pass away) dear soul – never!

Love demonstrates to you and me WHO GOD IS – forever.

We speak now of Faith, Hope and Love.  Faith and Hope will someday no longer BE necessary, when we are face to face with GOD through Christ Jesus in Eternity – but, LOVE, as GOD is LOVE – Love never fails.  It never will “come to pass.”  He remains forever – He does not “let us go” – He does not “throw us away” – He does not say “no more fellowship with you – you piece of trash” – No He does not say any of these things – He LOVES – and beloved, you and I are CALLED to forever and ever LIVE in this LOVE that GOD IS!

Living in Love means to really BE and BECOME this LIVING IN GOD ALONE in His Perfect Love!

May Jesus Christ be honored and glorified in His Word for all Eternity!

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


Hermitage and Motherhouse Reflections March 2014

March 12th, 2014

I AM not like that

(February 26th, 2014 at 1015 from the Hermitage of Mary)

“Come unto Me all that labor and are weighted down and I will give you Rest.”   The burden that I gave to you dear one is not as heavy as the burdens that you have made for yourself – the burdens of the world, the flesh and the devil – these are placed upon you out of evil – no dear one I AM not like them – I do not weigh you down with things that you cannot bear.

Are you crying my son – my daughter?  I AM weeping with you – for I AM with you – I AM never against you, when you are seeking Me – I understand your sorrows, for I have come down and dwell now in the midst of your sorrows – I AM the Man of sorrows – the Man acquainted with grief – take My yoke upon you and learn of Me – for I AM meek and lowly – and you shall find Rest – true Rest – true Quiet – you shall find then in Me Rest for your soul.

See, then, I AM not like those “other gods” that exact the toll upon you that takes away your life – I AM the Way, the Truth and the LIFE – I bring you to My Father in Heaven – the Spirit bears witness of Me to your soul.  Come – taste and see. Are you thirsty dear one?  And, then, as you come to the waters that you cherish here in the present — come then to the Water of Life.

“Come unto Me all that labor and are weighted down and I will give you Rest.”


Newness of Life in Christ

(February 24th, 2014 from the Hermitage of Mary)

St. Paul wrote to the Church at Rome:

“Now to him that works, the reward is not reckoned according to grace, but according to debt. But to him that works not, yet believeth in him that justifies the ungodly, his faith is reputed to justice, according to the purpose of the grace of God. As David also terms the blessedness of a man, to whom God reputes justice without works: Blessed are they whose iniquities are forgiven, and whose sins are covered.” (Romans 4: 4-7 Douay-Rheims)

Dear one, GOD is working for our Salvation through the working of Christ Jesus. The New Law is Loving GOD and one another – this is all through the Spirit of the Living GOD – not a matter of trying in the energy of the flesh to keep the letter of the Law (which is Good) – but, it is not by our might, nor by our power, but through the Holy Spirit!

Thanks be to GOD!

Perfect and continual union with GOD’s will becomes perfectly free through His Mercifully Present Power – linked directly to the tasting and seeing that He, like the Water of Life that is Pure – is Sweet and Good – and we out of LOVE for GOD serve Him because we Love Him – knowing that GOD Himself is Love! We respond according to the Power of the Blessed Holy Spirit – Loving GOD – this is the Obedience of Faith.

You see, true Faith unfeigned is obedient to our Beloved Savior and LORD.

Faith walks with GOD.

O, my GOD – how easily we trust self-effort over trusting GOD alone – we lie to our Beloved One before we understand finally our nothingness. We discover finally your Infinite Truth – O, help us, for our Help is in GOD alone. I do not know myself – but, I know my Beloved – and I know my Beloved knows me – remembering my frame – the dust that I am – the needy one that stands before bowed low the Mighty One that is the Supplier of all our needs. O, Jesus, your Supreme Majesty – I am yours – the nothing that I am seeks the Great I AM that you are! O Perfect LOVE – come and take the little soul and make him your very own.

O, GOD – BE Mercy toward us all and bring us all to the Cross one by one and as a people of your very own – bring us to the Cross that we might fully see Jesus alone and follow our Beloved Risen LORD fully as true sons and daughters of the Father, as the Holy Spirit guides us in Christ and His Church.


So many are my failures

(January 20th, 2014 at 2000 in the evening at the Hermitage of Mary)

Mary, my mother – pray for the little soul – my failures before my LORD Jesus Christ are many – and I am ashamed of them – ashamed that I have failed our GOD, the Son, the Father and GOD the Holy Spirit – alas, the pelican has no voice but the voice that is silence in his solitude – I am alone with GOD – the cold – the icy snow – fields of snow – awaiting another snow that will fall and add to the snows now present – showers of blessings – awaiting the Mercy-drops of GOD – the tears no longer ice, as when “Jesus wept” – and to know this once more – that we all might be touched in our infirmities and sense His Presence fully – to be fully transformed – ah, the wish – the desire.

O, dear Savior – how I feel so inadequate – I can speak for no other than myself – so inadequate to the tasks you have given me – so many failures – more now than I can even count – devastating awareness of how little I am in GOD – satisfied that GOD alone is Enough – happily awaiting, yet will some dread – but happily awaiting the Perfect Love that casts fully away this dread – the fear of man that is a snare.

O, my GOD, do not cast me away – O, my GOD receive this sinner and cast away his sins that they might be seen and heard from no more – O, for the “no more” times to come, when “no more” will we have these failures come to mind – O, I do so long for the “no more” of Eternity with GOD alone.

O, Jesus, Majesty – Son of GOD – Be our Mercy – dear Savior and LORD.


In the Person of the Son

(March 1st, 2014 from the Motherhouse)

Dear soul,

GOD has called each of us into a “Person-al” relationship with the Son of GOD – and we are never called as an “island” unto our self – “no man is an island.” (wrote John Donne)

No man is an island,
Entire of itself,
Every man is a piece of the continent,
A part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less.
As well as if a promontory were.
As well as if a manor of thy friend’s
Or of thine own were:
Any man’s death diminishes me,
Because I am involved in mankind,
And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls;
It tolls for thee

We are called as Christians to serve GOD as children of GOD through Faith in Christ Jesus – and to serve  one another by LOVING GOD and LOVING one another!  We are called to serve GOD and one another through LOVE.

Some souls have a definite calling to monastic Life in Christ within a monastic community – the vast majority though in Christ are called to monastic Life in Christ, but within the context of the Church’s Fellowship, as the writer to the Hebrews says:

“And let us consider one another, to provoke unto charity and to good works:  Not forsaking our assembly, as some are accustomed; but comforting one another and so much the more as you see the day approaching.” (Hebrews 10: 24, 25)

Let us remember that Jesus established His Church – He invites us to share in the Communion of the Church, for the sake of His LOVE and LOVING one another.

Dear one, we do not judge here – but, we do discern much in these times of trial.  We will be responsible to Jesus when we see Him face to face – We are called to listen to His Voice and obey His calling for us – a Personal relationship in the Person of Christ who brings us to the Father – and in our relationship to one another in the Church. 

Let us remember, dear friend – “My sheep hear My Voice and I know them – and they follow Me.”


The Focus of the Ministry in the End Times

The spirituality of the desert fathers is timely – it accents the threefold necessity of Silence, Solitude and Unceasing Prayer for the servant of God in these last days. We cannot afford to forget these three things, as we see the enemy of our soul crowding into our time and space to bring about the consummation of this age as the leaders of this world see themselves as the “centers of their own universe” – caring little about the pains they cause in the lives of others. Dear one – GOD sees the mechanisms of these so called “leaders” and He will be the Judge. Trust HIM – forget the leaders of this passing age. We are only called to “be subject” to them – never to worship their gigantic egos.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean to your own understanding – but, in all your ways acknowledge HIM and He shall direct your paths!

Jesus spoke of the times wherein we find ourselves, when He spoke to His disciples on the Mount of Olives. Here is the application we sense for our times:

And when he was sitting on mount Olivet, the disciples came to him privately, saying: Tell us when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the consummation of the world?

The world does not know the mysteries of GOD – but the child of GOD has these things revealed to us through the Holy Scriptures – the Spirit Himself bears witness to us that we are the children of GOD – and we know what is revealed to the Church, because we have ears to hear and eyes to see what the Spirit is saying to the Churches (Revelation chapters 2-3)

And Jesus answering, said to them: Take heed that no man seduce you:

For many will come in my name saying, I am Christ: and they will seduce many.

And you shall hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that ye be not troubled. For these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.

For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom; and there shall be pestilences, and famines, and earthquakes in places:

Now all these are the beginnings of sorrows.

Dear one, we are not deceived – mankind cannot bring Peace to this world, for the world – there is no Peace for the ungodly. The world cannot have Peace – for Great Peace have they who Love GOD’s Law – nothing shall offend them – but, there is no Peace, says GOD for the ungodly. We see this is Psalms 1 and 2, if we take time to read and meditate upon those Psalms carefully. The world is headed toward the Judgment of GOD.

We see the world’s leaders acting in egocentric Pride (with a capital “P”) – and there is no end for now to the depths of that depraved Pride for men who seek to set themselves up as little “gods” of this present age under the terrible ego of the “god of this age” – the enemy of our souls.

Dear one, take heed and look to JESUS and take no time to look to the men who desire your worship “instead of Christ” who is the only One Worthy of Worship (Revelation 4).

We are seeing (as we have been seeing for 1000 years) “the beginnings of sorrows.”

Rejoice, we have martyrdom as our Grace.

Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall put you to death: and you shall be hated by all nations for my name’s sake.

We are graced with this Mercy from GOD – sharing in the Crucifixion of Christ Jesus – nevertheless, we Live – and this Life we Live in Christ Jesus, we Live by Faith in the Son of GOD – Him who gave His Life for you and me that we might have Life in Him more abundantly.

There is a “cost to discipleship” though dear one – and that cost is that we take up our cross and follow Him also – lay aside this life with its fluff – and follow Him who has Risen from the death and darkness – and offers to us the newness of Life in His Person.

O, the sadness –

And then shall many be scandalized: and shall betray one another: and shall hate one another.

And many false prophets shall rise, and shall seduce many.

And because iniquity hath abounded, the charity of many shall grow cold.

But he that shall persevere to the end, he shall be saved.

And this gospel of the kingdom, shall be preached in the whole world, for a testimony to all nations, and then shall the consummation come. (Matthew’s Gospel 3: 3-14)

Even if we are marginalized by false brethren – take heart – for JESUS is our True Brother – Jesus is our True King – Jesus the Son of GOD is our Enough – He Lives and has given Himself for us – that we might come to BE and BECOME in Him the people of GOD – for no man is an island dear one – we are all part of the Body of Christ Jesus in the Church through that Holy Baptism and Faith that brings us into the family of GOD.


The little soul is at Peace in the Rest that He has given to him – Blessed Be His Name Forever and ever, for Jesus alone is Worthy, amen and amen.


Walking by Faith and Never by What we See

(March 2nd, 2014 from the Motherhouse of Mary in the Wilderness)

We walk by Faith and never it seems by sight – GOD moves in mysterious ways – He is working when we are fretting – and our fretting is silliness, when we look back in the wake of His Provision over and above all we have fretted about in the Way wherein we walked with Him.  O, Jesus, how silly have been the fears of this little soul, when you have provided for all our needs according to your riches in Glory through Christ Jesus!  My GOD and my All – you are rich in Mercy – and I am so weak in my frailty – for we have not seen what you have been showing all along the Way that you are, dear GOD.

Dear one, we have heard of Enoch who walked with GOD.

We have heard about him, but do we really understand what he is about as an application of Godly Faith in the Presence of Jesus.  He is mentioned as an example in the great chapter on Faith in the Epistle to the Hebrews. 

“By faith Henoch was translated, that he should not see death; and he was not found, because God had translated him: for before his translation he had testimony that he pleased God. But without faith it is impossible to please God. For he that comes to God, must believe that he is, and is a rewarder to them that seek Him.”  (Hebrews 11: 5, 6)

You see, dear one, FAITH has real Substance – and it is always in and through the Person of Christ Jesus – it is the Witness of the Holy Church and the Holy Scriptures.  We walk by Faith like Enoch (Henoch) who walked with GOD.  Now, many of us will see death – but we shall all be translated in the end, when we are Resurrected in the Last Day, when we hear His Voice and like Lazarus are Raised to Glory with a re-newed body that is not incorruptible.

Said Saint Paul:

“Behold, I tell you a mystery. We shall all indeed rise again: but we shall all be changed.  In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall rise again incorruptible: and we shall be changed.  For this corruptible must put on incorruption; and this mortal must put on immortality.  And when this mortal hath put on immortality, then shall come to pass the saying that is written: Death is swallowed up in victory.”  (I Corinthians 15: 51-54)

Dear one, if this is so (and it is) how is it that we can doubt GOD’s Graces to care for us in the Present times.  We do not see now the Resurrection – but we do see it in the future (as we term it) – and yet it is as good as present for us now in the Presence of the Son of GOD; and he cannot lie, for His holy Apostle, St. Paul has spoken the words of the Holy Spirit, dear one.  We do not see this now with our eyes – however, we see JESUS our Resurrection and Life – we see Him who is the Way, the Truth and the Life – and He brings us to the Father, as Enoch walked with GOD – and he was translated that he might not see death.

Dear friend, GOD desires that we also be translated that we might never see death again – though it is appointed unto men once to die and after this the Judgment.

O, our GOD – we know the Word of the LORD that says – “…without faith it is impossible to please God. For he that comes to God, must believe that he is, and is a rewarder to them that seek Him.”   Grant to us, dear Savior – Grant to us the Grace in your Mercy to have a deepening Faith like Enoch who walked with GOD and now is with GOD for all eternity.

Grant that we might fully trust in GOD alone in the present and see with our hearts the Provision of GOD in all things now and for eternity – as we walk with GOD by Faith in the Grace wherein we stand.

May GOD be praised forever through Christ our LORD and Redeemer.


Many times

Dear soul,

Many times we fail to see with our spiritual eyes the clear evidence of GOD’s Providential Care for us in His Graces bestowed – we fail to thank Him – even when gratitude is something He desires – for Love desires our Best always – and gratitude is evidence within a creature that we recognize the Best He has provided in His LOVE.  In the same manner we do not hear Him well, when He speaks to us – and He speaks to us all the time in the silence and the solitude of His Presence.

We do not need to say anything – in fact it is best when we do not say anything – but simply turn our hearts in LOVE to Him – responding to Jesus with the Father in the fruitfulness of the Holy Spirit’s LOVE within our little soul.  We acknowledge that GOD Gives to us all that we need and He withholds from us nothing that we need – do we see and hear this?  GOD always provides for our every need and does not ever (not) provide for all that we do need.

My God will supply all your needs according to His riches in Glory through Christ Jesus, said an apostle of Christ.  We know this, because we know that GOD is our Creator – the Giver of all good gifts – and He never gives to us what we do not need, because He is the Good Heavenly Father forever.  O, dear one, He gives infinitely more than any puerile government is able to give – for they have only what they have been given by GOD as well.

O, dear one, the little soul is so weary from listening to the noises of men who make a great statement about themselves to be the “all in all” in fulfillment of our needs.  It is never the case – for they take more than they ever give – when will humanity awaken to the Reality of GOD’s Loving Mercy – His Provision in Grace toward us sinners – His Being Enough for us?

I am sad inside with the “sadness of GOD” – the Joy that senses sadness – a deep sadness that longs for humanity to turn to Jesus and see Him and hear His Word.

But, dear one, humanity races on its own ways toward destruction – wars and rumors of war – nation against nations – people against peoples – vitriol and selfishness reign for a little longer – but JOY in Christ Jesus comes in the Morning.

For now, we Rest in His Presence and sense the Wonderful Person that is, when we know that GOD so loved the world (mankind) that He GAVE His only begotten SON.

GOD calls us – do we not see Him and hear Him calling?


GOD speaks in the darkest of nights

Awakened in the long night dear one, we must always trust in GOD alone – for the Voice speaks in the night (inaudibly, but to the recesses of the soul), “Trust in the LORD with all your heart – lean not to your own understanding – in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your pathway.”  But, more internally does our Beloved speak to the soul – “My GOD shall supply all your needs according to His Riches in Christ Jesus.”

The world goes its ways – GOD calls us into His Way – the Truth speaks to us – the Life is given and makes us LIVE in Him alone in Communion with the Church, which is His Body.

My GOD, why do we ever worry?

Why do we fret?

What is it about us that make us such feeble stuff to have such anxieties about His provision for us, when He is our Provision Himself?

In the darkest of nights your Voice is heard, as you speak to the innermost being of our soul – and your Voice is never silenced, but carries itself in every recess of this silence and solitude wherein we Live: as we pray without ceasing to your Majesty, our Beloved who never leaves us, nor do you forsake us, even unto the end of this present age – as ages of ages roll in time and space – and your Voice is heard in everything that has its being.  O, Creator GOD – we are listening – the Voice that cries in the heart of solitude – the Prayer that continues without ceasing – the Love that does not let us go – O, Immensity of GOD – Glorious Mystery – you alone are Worthy – and we are listening – and your Voice whispers softly in this present darkness, as the Light is shining – shining to dispel its little moment in time and space with the Light – and GOD is speaking to us – have we ears to hear?

O, “blessed madness” that comes with knowing GOD, when the world cannot know our Beloved One.  O, blessed Voice that speaks to the innermost being – O, Lovely Presence that is seen with the eyes of the heart!  We cannot describe what the eyes of man cannot see to comprehend – for the language of Love dispels all rational thought – when the Voice speaks the Word of our LORD and He cries out within our heart and says – “GOD Come to our assistance – LORD, make haste to help us.”

We sit in silence alone, because He has placed us here.

We respond, “Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit – as it was in the beginning – it is NOW and EVER SHALL BE – world without end, amen.”

What GOD has prepared is in eternity prepared for us and will never end – He has put eternity in our hearts – GOD is our Provision – He cannot lie – He keeps His Promise – My GOD will supply all our needs according to His Riches in Glory through Christ Jesus!  It is the Prayer of the Heart that cries out in this night – the darkness is dispelling quietly around us – the Love of GOD dispels the fear – that dread – He cleanses from all sin – His Mercy endures forever.

In Scete a brother went to Abba Moses to ask a word.  And the old man said to him: “Go and sit in your cell, and your cell will teach you everything.”

It is true only when we take within the cell the Beloved in His Fullness and ponder the Word of the LORD within the cell with Jesus.

O, Jesus, your Majesty – stay with the little soul we are – and bring us into your Perfect Love.


Ash Wednesday reflection

We often look at others and think about how they ought to repent – this morning, beginning Lent, we look at ourselves and see we are the worst sinners around, when we condemn others and do not first see the sins in our self.  Two stories are given in the desert fathers:

One day Abba Isaac went to a monastery.  He saw a brother committing a sin and he condemned him.  When he returned to the desert, an angel of the Lord came and stood in front of the door of his cell, and said, “I will not let you enter.”  But he persisted by saying, “What is the matter?”  And the angel replied, “God has sent me to ask you where you want to throw the guilty brother whom you have condemned.”  Immediately he repented and said, “I have sinned, forgive me.”  Then the angel said, “Get up, God has forgiven you. But from now on, be careful not to judge someone before God has done so.”

Amma Syncletica said: “Imitate the Publican and you will not be condemned with the Pharisee.  Choose the meekness of Moses and you will find your heart which is a rock changed into a spring of water.”

Dear one now is the time when we all need to come to GOD in true contrition, forgetting the sins of others and seeing that Christ died for our sins – and seeing ourselves as though we were the only sinners in the whole of the universe.

Dear one, pray for one another.

A Blessed Ash Wednesday


In our Distress God Calls us – Psalm 120

 A Song of degrees. In my distress I cried unto the LORD, and he heard me.  Deliver my soul, O LORD, from lying lips, and from a deceitful tongue.  What shall be given unto thee? or what shall be done unto thee, thou false tongue?  Sharp arrows of the mighty, with coals of juniper.  Woe is me, that I sojourn in Mesech, that I dwell in the tents of Kedar!  My soul hath long dwelt with him that hateth peace.  I am for peace: but when I speak, they are for war.

Dear one, we are surrounded by lies and liars – the world is filled with the children of the father of lies.  But, we seen not fear them – they may kill the body that we inhabit – but these sad souls that are deceived by the evil one cannot kill the true self we are IN CHRIST – He is Victor over the world, the flesh and the devil!

May soul magnifies the LORD and my Spirit exalts GOD my Savior.  Truly He has blessed us above all people – with Mary we are Blessed amongst all women – I speak as a member of the Bride of Christ, espoused to my Beloved (our Beloved One).  We do not have long to wait for His Parousia – for it is much closer now than when the Apostles of the Lamb spoke of it – Blessed be the Beloved One we Desire that comes in the Name of the LORD.

These souls that transpire against the LORD and His Messiah are an enigma – they are spoken of in Psalm 2 –

Why do the heathen rage, and the people imagine a vain thing?

The kings of the earth set themselves, and the rulers take counsel together, against the LORD, and against his anointed, saying,

Let us break their bands asunder, and cast away their cords from us.

He that sitteth in the heavens shall laugh: the Lord shall have them in derision.

Then shall he speak unto them in his wrath, and vex them in his sore displeasure.

Yet have I set my king upon my holy hill of Zion.

I will declare the decree: the LORD hath said unto me, Thou art my Son; this day have I begotten thee.

Ask of me, and I shall give thee the heathen for thine inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth for thy possession.

Thou shalt break them with a rod of iron; thou shalt dash them in pieces like a potter’s vessel.

Be wise now therefore, O ye kings: be instructed, ye judges of the earth.

Serve the LORD with fear, and rejoice with trembling.

Kiss the Son, lest he be angry, and ye perish from the way, when his wrath is kindled but a little. Blessed are all they that put their trust in him.

We would do well to understand this speak of Christ (Messiah, the Anointed One) at His Parousia and now as He sits beside the Father.  We know Him, dear one – and He is our Sufficiency – this One who Loves us as His very own people.

Yes, Kiss the Son…


Becoming Lovers of GOD

We waste too much time – it is all about Loving GOD with every fiber of our being, because GOD so loves us!  We cannot even describe His Loving Kindness – His Divine Mercy to us – He has and does DEMONSTRATE this to us daily, as He has in the Holy Scriptures.  Therefore, dear one – LOVE GOD and just get to know Him better and better – because He is Worthy of our adoration and Love – a Fruit of the Holy Spirit for us.

Just had this on my heart and had to proclaim some more before closing down in several hours.

Love you all… (for this comes forth from Loving GOD)… this Loving one another.


Becoming who we are in Jesus

A man is only truly a real man when that one becomes a son of GOD through Faith in Christ Jesus.  The term applies to men and women – and dear one we speak of  “man” generically, as it is stated in genesis 5:2 – “He created them male and female; and blessed them: and called their name Adam, in the day when they were created.”

Dear one, GOD is Love – keep in mind today this passage about our duty as man to Love.  GOD demonstrated what?  He demonstrated His Love toward us in that while we were yet sinners Christ (His Son) died for us!

“If you keep my commandments, you shall abide in my love; as I also have kept my Father’s commandments, and do abide in his Love.”  (St. John 15:1)

Our Beloved is the Last Adam (Man) – in Christ Jesus we have become “new creations” – we are called to Live as Jesus Lived – and this Living is in Love.

There is so little commitment to Love GOD and to Love one another in the Way that Christ tells us to Love GOD and Love one another – sometimes Love must be very tough – for it must turn the “money changers’ tables” over in the Temple courts and release the animals for sacrifice, proclaiming that God’s House is not to be made into a den of thieves – and this is of course unappreciated by those exchanging things contrary to the Law of GOD.  It may mean sitting beside a person that is fearful and perhaps dying without anyone else in the world – therefore, this is Love to BE that person’s side to be the Presence of Christ next to that abandoned one.

You can sense what is God’s direction for your Life in God’s Love.

Dear one, we are all given the will of GOD in differing formats.  We abandon our self and abandon our self to doing the will of GOD – not merely speaking about this will.  Isaiah says it succinctly about his generation that majored in externalities:

“ For they seek me from day to day, sad desire to know my ways, as a nation that hath done justice, and hath not forsaken the judgment of their God: they ask of me the judgments of justice: they are willing to approach to God. Why have we fasted, and thou hast not regarded: have we humbled our souls, and thou hast not taken notice? Behold in the day of your fast your own will is found, and you exact of all your debtors.”

GOD answers such externalities:

“Behold you fast for debates and strife. and strike with the fist wickedly. Do not fast as you have done until this day, to make your cry to be heard on high. Is this such a fast as I have chosen: for a man to afflict his soul for a day? is this it, to wind his head about like a circle, and to spread sackcloth and ashes? wilt thou call this a fast, and a day acceptable to the Lord?  Is not this rather the fast that I have chosen? loose the bands of wickedness, undo the bundles that oppress, let them that are broken go free, and break asunder every burden. Deal thy bread to the hungry, and bring the needy and the harborless into thy house: when thou shalt see one naked, cover him, and despise not thy own flesh. Then shall thy light break forth as the morning, and thy health shall speedily arise, and thy justice shall go before thy face, end the glory of the Lord shall gather thee up.”  (Isaiah 58: 2-8, Douay-Rheims)

There is more – but the space does not permit dear one – the Word of the LORD is to act and fulfill what He says in you and me.  FAITH is the Substance of things hoped for – the evidence of things unseen.  Each of us know internally what it is GOD really and truly wants us to DO – this will of the Father who sends each of us!

We are to become “reflections” of HIM – doers of the Word and not merely hearers.  We speak to our self, dear one. This is a Lenten spiritual sense that ought to be resolved by Passion Week – prepared for Resurrection Day!

Becoming who we are in Christ Jesus in the end for us comes to mean that we are called and do walk in the Light as He is in the Light.

God bless you.


GOD is working in you

(Hermitage of Mary – Monday the 10th, 2014)

Dear soul, GOD is working in each of us – and we are called to work-out what GOD is working in each of us – His Salvation – His Sanctification – all for His Greater Glory and for what is BEST for you and me!  It is all for the Love of Christ Jesus.

Dear friend, we are hurt so often in life – and as we go through life, we are placed through trials that are painful and joyful.  We learn to trust GOD over others – what the Psalmist said in Psalm 118: 8, 9:

“It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man. It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in princes.”

How many times have we read this and found it to be true?

It is Best – GOD’s best to trust in GOD dear one – for only GOD is fully Trustworthy – for GOD always keeps His Promises – when He speaks, you and I can always count on His Word as the Truth!

Therefore, dear soul let us trust in GOD over all others.


Unfruitful Worry

(March 7th, 2014 from the Hermitage of Mary)

It is useless to worry – for when we worry we are showing ourselves and others how important this passing world is to us in our littleness.  I suppose that it is “normal” to worry, because this is all we really know – for before we were born into being, we did not have knowledge of being anywhere.  I am smiling, because we become foolish little souls that forget so easily that we are simply passing through the present age toward Zion’s Gate.

We prayed for a man today that we found out had passed on this last Saturday – and we knew nothing of his passing until we were told – we know so little dear one…so very little.

When we conjure up the memories of the past with anxiety – the anxiety is a limitable this for us to do in the Face of the Faith we ought to have as Christians.  Dear one, there is nothing that you or I can do about the past – what is done is done.  We can repent – we can declare how sorry we are – we can rejoice in the past – but it is the past!

 Therefore, dear soul – we are called more and more to forget the things of the past (our sins) – confess them – be reconciled to GOD and one another – and to press forward to that prize of the “high calling” of GOD through Christ Jesus. 

O, dear one – Jesus in the Present is our Divine Mercy.  He calls each of us to BE and BECOME what is unique to our being. – as GOD has created us as His unique “new creations” in Christ Jesus (cf. II Corinthians 5: 17). 

WE have this ministry that we have been given by Grace through Faith dear one.

Life is not so difficult, when we walk with GOD, as Enoch walked with GOD.

When we TRUST GOD – we are trusting Him who is our Creator – the One who Loves us.  O, how much this little soul must learn – for we are seeking to trust in GOD with the whole heart, leaning not to his own understanding.


The Only Way

The only Way we will ever come to the place of Rest in GOD alone is to come to the realization and acceptance of our own sinfulness before our GOD – and to recognize and accept who and what we are and the Great Gift of GOD in the Person of the Son of GOD who Loves us and died for us and raises us to newness of Life, when we receive Him.  We remember daily: 

But as many as received him, he gave them power to be made the sons of God, to them that believe in his name.  Who are born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.  And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we saw his glory, the glory as it were of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.  (The Gospel of St. John 1: 12-14)

The little soul rejoices in this Reality – Rests in the Resurrection that Receives this Gracious Person of the Son of GOD.  He is the Way, the Truth and the Life – and no one comes to the Father but through Him.  Let us listen to the Holy Spirit’s Voice in these end of days.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


THE Best Decision

February 27th, 2014

THE Best Decision for the little soul

(From the Heritage of Mary on February 25th 2014)

Dear one,

The Best Decision was not his decision at all – as it was the time and place that he recognized to follow the Voice of Jesus further into the desert – forsaking the accolades of men – his position of authority (such as it was) – leaving the chaos of the worldly squabbling – “who is the chief disciple among us?”  Yes, leaving that nonsense to follow Mary of Bethany – Mary Magdalene – even Mary the Mother of Jesus – following in order to listen to the Voice of Jesus – the “better Way” – the Way that will not be taken from him.

Abba Zeno the disciple of abba Sylvanus said: “Do not dwell in a famous place, and do not become the disciple of a man in a great home.  And do not lay any foundation where you build yourself a cell.”

There is much Truth in this!  We seek all too often to establish OUR legacies and not Christ.

We are a sad bunch of servant of Jesus – when we think more of our false self than His Person and the new man we are in Jesus.  O dear, when will we awaken to the Truth in Him and have a heart like the three Mary’s we have mentioned?

How Lovely is His Voice – how calmly He speaks to the hearts of sinner – O, perish from my former life O soul that has repented – may that former life of chaos be damned – and may my Beloved LORD and Savior – our true King – and His new Life for the little soul be a blessed one in Jesus.  For the little soul desires to only see Jesus – he seeks to know Him who is forever Blessed and Beloved – for our Bless Hope is Jesus.

O, GOD – how can we decide in favor of what the active soul cannot comprehend?  We are now content to pray for such souls that become too busy to know this Blessed Desert Place in Jesus.  Om GOD, the little soul knows the deception of becoming too busy to stop and pray within the hermitage Within.  Take time dear one to be holy – set apart a place and time to Love and Listen to our First Love – He comes and waits beside you – nay – even more –inside your very being in Christ – Christ in you the Hope of Glory whom we preach – He comes to make you holy in the Perfect Love He IS.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

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The scribes and Pharisees once condemned and reproached the Lord for eating and drinking with publicans and sinners. To this the Savior said: I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance (Matthew 9:13). From these words of Christ it is evident that the purpose of His coming into the world was our repentance. If repentance was the purpose of Jesus Christ’s coming into the world, then it is clear that we, too, ought to consider repentance the purpose of our entire lives and all our labors.

archbishop seraphim sobolev


Reflections of February 18 through 26th 2014 from hermitage of Mary

February 27th, 2014


The Simplicity that Comforts

(From the Hermitage of Mary on February 18th, 2014)

The winds, the sunlight – all continues to warm and refresh the land – it is being cleansed by the coming of spring, as the winter passes through the land with its moisture – the waters of life – and the little soul has warmed and refreshed with the land – the snows are melting – the ground is exposed to light and the refreshing winds that blow their life giving graces to the elements that await that “newness of life”.

There is no hope so Hopeful as HIM who is our Beloved and Blessed HOPE – no mere words can describe His Mercy-Love toward us sinners.  The Word became Flesh – we beheld His Glory – the Glory of the Only Begotten of the Father full of Grace and Peace.

We are silent before Him in our simplicity – and the only expression is perfect silence in this newness of Life expressed in Him alone – for the Light shines in Him, evermore shining brightly in this darkness wherein we find our being.  The still and the small Voice within – in its Silence and Simplicity – this Voice comforts more deeply that all the voices of men whose hearts are darkened through unbelief within the solitude of their own darkness.

Our Comfort is to know the Simplicity the Light always overcomes the darkness that surrounds – the Word of the LORD in our Comfort through the Spirit of the LORD.  For the entrance of God’s Word gives Light – understanding to the simple.


O, JESUS – First Love

So many find it so difficult to believe GOD is able to Help – because they spend too much time relying on their own help – that less than helpful help that helps itself imperfectly!  Our true Help is the LORD – our Creator.  Our Blessed Hope is not in our self – our false self – but our Blessed Hope is JESUS!  GOD alone!


BE-ing Quiet, we hear His Voice

(February 24th, 2014 from the Hermitage of Mary)

Dear one,

When we refuse to go into the silence with GOD – when we refuse the solitude that is always present in His Person – when we try and do not fully TRUST – when we fail ourselves and do not trust in the LORD with all our heart and we do not lean to our own understanding – and when we do not in all our ways acknowledge Him — – as our Beloved One cannot direct our pathway to HIM – in Him alone!  This does not mean that GOD is unable – He is always able – but He does not violate our free will to bless us when we refuse His blessings.

Look into My eyes, dear one – look deeply and listen to My Voice that speaks to your soul in the stillness of the cold and dark night of your soul – I AM your Savior – I AM your Redeemer that Sanctifies you wholly.

Are you weary of trying so hard and trusting so little?  In your refusal to trust Him fully in the “quies” – we do not hear His Voice.  O my, how easily it is to not hear the Voice of our Savior and LORD.  O Savior GOD – how long will we relish the noise over the Voice that comes in the silence?  How long – this trying so hard and trusting so little?  How long, this “sloppy” service that severs itself from silence and solitude?

BE quiet, then dear one, and listen to His Voice in the silence – and serve Him as true sons in Love with Him.


Heaven minded-ness

(February 24th, 2014 at 0001 from the hermitage of Mary)

Dear one – we are called to become in Him so heavenly minded that – Christ-Minded-ness that we are only some earthly good for Him.  We cannot be of any use to Him in the heavens or on the earth, IF we take no time to BE holy unto Jesus – for GOD has said:  “Be Holy, for I Am Holy.”  Therefore, we separate in Christ Jesus to BE with Him much in body, soul and spirit – there to hear His Voice in the silence and the solitude – then, we are empowered to become His witnesses in the midst of our sojourning in the outskirts of Babylon.

Come out from her my children – do not be partakers in her ways – be holy unto the LORD who Loves you.


Sorrow before the Sun Light

(February 26th, 2014 at 1100 in the morning at the Hermitage of Mary)

The Sun’s Light drifts across the room this morning, like the dial of a clock – like the ticking clock it moves in its clockwork fashion and now warms the little soul who sits it its bright warmth – it is golden – this Light – the rays its heat bring Life to the sorrowful soul that sits in the silence and solitude of this Hermitage of Mary in that assurance of the Blessed One of Perfect Love’s Embrace – the silence of the hands and arms of GOD surrounding him – but invisible to the natural eyes – silent to the natural ear.

It is QUIET – the Sun’s Light is like the Son’s Light that Lights every man that comes into the world.  WE rejoice to know His Touch – the Gentle Touch of Jesus – the Touch that is not harsh or “pushy” but draws us closer to the Sacred Heart by LOVE – Perfect Love that casts out fear!  This Touch  is subtle but verily it is Real – it does not “let go” – but calls upon us to “let go” of our distractions – our little “antichrists” in order to cling to the warmth of the Light of GOD alone like Mary in the Garden Tomb, seeking her Master – “Rabboni”.

There is no more sorrow in this Light – there is only the tears that come with the newness of Life – that Blessedness – that JOY that comes in the morning of His Presence – the Morning of Perfect Love.


The One Thing that we Lack

Dear one, we lack only one thing that seems to be lacking with more and more frequency as the times grow darker.  I have sensed it – it is something that causes the little soul to weep over much – that is LOVE.  I sense that humanity is refusing to LOVE – preferring evil over the Good of GOD alone – refusing compassion – even much human kindness – preferring to let LOVE be an abstraction – a thing for the weak souls – something abandoned – from the way the police treat the powerless – to the ways in which the governments of the world believe themselves to be the centers of their own universes.

Dear one, in GOD alone – through Christ Jesus alone – we see what the Spirit tells us, O, dear one – O, listen to His Voice, for the times are drawing closer that no one will be listening any longer – for those in power will do unloving things to the Lovers of GOD:

“Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the vain glory of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passes away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abides forever.”

JESUS asks us with Peter, the apostle – Do you Love Me?

Many have and will come in a final form as the “instead of Christ” as the Holy Scriptures say to us… (Cf John 2: 15-18)

We have been warned dear one.


Prayer for Peace

(From the Hermitage of Mary on February 23rd, 2014)

Dear soul,

WE pray for Peace – when there is no Peace for the ungodly souls seek their own ways – they do not seek Him who is our Peace – Him who is the Way, the Truth and the Life – yet, we pray for Peace through the Divine Mercy of GOD to bring the cessation of the chaos in order to give weak souls the chance to repent and with true contrition come to know Him who is our Peace.  WE pray that we might come to Faith and Trust in Him who is our Prince of Peace – our coming King and LORD over all things – our True KING the LORD Jesus Christ!

(Why do we not seek HIM who is our PEACE?  Is it because we do not believe in Him – believing His Word – for Great Peace have they that Love GOD’s Law – nothing shall offend them.) 

O, my GOD – when will we see this Peace reigning in our midst?  O, Jesus alone – our City of Peace (Our True Jerusalem) –the City of Peace –now, we must look to Him who is our Peace – and thus a remnant will be saved by the Holy One who was born the Prince of Peace.

O, come Emmanuel – GOD with us – O, come and BE our Peace O, King of kings and LORD of lords.

LORD GOD, how long?

How long?

(AS long as we forget the Name above every other name in the heavens and the earth – that is How long? – when we look to the Name wherein is our Salvation – our True Peace – then and only then – then, in that Day of the LORD – His Peace will reign – when all has been made Righteousness through the Sun of Righteousness that descends with healing in its wings, as the prophet Malachi has proclaimed.  Then, shall the eyes of the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped – then Peace will come, when the hearts of men have been transformed – then (in that Day) the earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the Glory of the LORD as the waters cover the seas.

Then, dear one – only then – but, until then – Great Peace have they that Love GOD’s LAW – and nothing shall offend them – and what is this Law?  It is the LAW of LOVE.)


Letting Go Quietly with His LOVE

(February 25th, 2014 at 0001 from the hermitage of Mary)

Dear one,

WE are all learning to let go of the things that distract us from our Beloved LORD – our Savior GOD – the One who CARES for us!  O, the silliness of the things we hold onto – such wood, hay and stubble – these things that will be burned in the purgatorial fires (Cf. I Corinthians 3)

St. Nikolai said:

“For a long time the junk accumulated within you has been in need of a bonfire.  The bonfire will last a long time, because the old junk within you has rotted.” (Prayers by the Lake by St. Nikolai Velemirovich)

Let us, dear one – let us rid ourselves of this junk that we hold onto – those things we need to cart to the feet of Jesus to the bonfire – our cares – those anxiety things that come and distract us from Jesus’ Face.  Let this One become our Focus, the Face of Jesus.

“Casting all your cares upon Him for He cares for you.” (I Peter 5:7)

The things of Life – the old man – the things of the false self –these things bring anxiety – but when we cast them at the feet of Jesus and do not pick them up again – then they have time to burn thoroughly – and these things are turned to ashes – like the ashes of Ash Wednesday – and the mark of their burning is upon our foreheads to remind us of JESUS and His Work on our behalf – O, dear one – remember the fires of the bonfire that will come when we see Him.

In the QUIET with GOD alone – Find His LOVE and Let Go of all that is not LOVE – hold all things loosely – casting the anxieties – for ALL is HIS not yours or mine!


  • Coming into His Presence
  • There is a Loving Touch from GOD,
  • Revealing much to His little clod of sod
  • That sits below the loftiness of Heaven’s Light –
  • The Touch of GOD that comes with Might
  • And certitude in warmth and tender Power.
  • I am a little one, a little more than nothing
  • And with ears of Faith – hear Heaven’s ringing
  • Voices in song and lofty psalms proclaiming Life
  • In Jesus our coming King in Brightest LIGHT
  • His Glory to fill the earth as waters cover sea.
  • I sit alone in silence, for you have put me here
  • Alone with GOD the Blessed Comforter – So near
  • Is He who proceeds from Father and the Son
  • To BE with us and finally in Jesus make us one –
  • The Glory is revealed in the Present Tense what is to BE revealed!
  • What can this little less than something say to you?
  • What is it that we have not been given our view
  • That is not already from you, O Beloved One?
  • Everything we see and touch shows to us your Son
  • As gifts of Divine Love, like rays of Sun that come in the morning!
  • All we know is around us – we bask now in His Presence.
  • We count our blessings in Him who is our Present.
  • Our Blessed First LOVE who Presently Programs
  • For us a Place in the New Jerusalem – but, is near
  • In this Present He is making intimate His Hermitage Within.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Memories wept by Jesus, mid-February at Hermitage

February 22nd, 2014


St. Paul said to the Church at Galatia – “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I that live, but Christ living in me: and that [life] which I now live in the flesh I live in faith, [the faith] which is in the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself up for me.” (Galatians 2: 20 Standard Version)

Such a Life that we also Live in Christ Jesus – no longer dead in our trespasses and sins – the old man — the false self — but alive to newness of Life – a crucified Life – a Life that is new in Jesus – and the fellowship by Faith we have with one another in the Church is evidenced by forgiveness and bearing the burdens of one another through prayer and fasting.

You see – to be crucified means to be (and become) dead to sin and death – for we no longer a alive to the old man – he is dead and therefore, there is a new creation – a new self that is not false – but true to Jesus and the holy people of God.

Dear one, lay aside the old man – lay him aside – he is dead – cast him out – through Perfect Love’s embrace – allow him to be cast out – and therefore be renewed in this newness of Life that we have in Christ.  Dear one, we need not be living any longer is defeat and despair – HE LIVES – therefore we might Live in newness of Life IN HIM.  O – Be resurrected with Him – He Loves you dear one.  Be resurrected in wholeness in Jesus – trust in His Mercy – His Perfect Love – His Grace.


Too Easily

Dear soul, all too often and too easily do we take offense over minor issues – forgetting the offense of the Cross – the outrages that Jesus endured in suffering for our sins.  Do we think that GOD will look kindly on our being so offended over the small indignities we experience, when He endured such outrages from our own sinful behaviors?  Let us think of Jesus before we “get so offended” by the trivialities of this passing life we live here in the present.  Look to Jesus alone – GOD is Present and extends Mercy – therefore, always foster Mercy over revenge and being so indignant over things that happen to us.  The little soul (first) speaks to himself, when he suggests these things to others.  He has not been without fault in the past – but, now is seeking always to become the person he is called to become through Christ.

Look to Jesus always that we might not be too easily distracted from His Way.


To Live our existence is our Prayer

(February 13th, 2014 at 0900 from the Hermitage of Mary in the Wilderness for Oblate Sister Joanna and others of like-mindedness in Christ Jesus)

The reason little soul for your Life is PRAYER – all prayer – the continuous Dialogue with your Creator and Savior GOD – ALL PRAYER – confessing your helplessness — handling the Truth – gazing Lovingly at the Face …of the One who Loves us – our Savior and Sanctifier!

The Spirit of GOD makes all prayer effective.

The Spirit knows how to pray effectively even when we do not – we encounter the TRUTH and the FATHER through Christ JESUS – Holy Trinity (one GOD) – our GOD is PRESENT and He comes to us to Commune with us as we wait upon our LORD that we might LOVE unreservedly our Beloved and one another in Christ Jesus – our Beloved One.

Ah, dear ones, let go of self alone – choose Him alone – set aside all that distracts – dear ones – all things are passing, except GOD alone – all things – come and BE quiet (becoming in Him) more quiet – and KNOW that GOD is GOD – Merciful Love – steadfast Love – the Love that does not let us go – the Perfect Love that casts out fear– the Gift of His Grace – this is mature Prayer – All Prayer – the Love of GOD has for us – it is Himself, for GOD is Love – always Giving in His Abundant Life – this abundant Love through Christ Jesus.

Alas, dear soul – fellow weak ones in Jesus – it is always in and about the Blessed Person of Jesus our Risen LORD!


Crying softly into the pillow at night

So many sad hearts – so many painful memories – moments in time that will not go away – holding onto the mind – memories that sting and burn – the eyes and soul – we cry softly into the pillow dear LORD – we cry with tears that come and go in the night.  There are times when the tears flow profusely and the fervency of the prayers are deeper than what we might bear – these crosses that are borne by your people all over the world – inside we are raining oceans of tears – the sorrowful state of mankind – the awe we sense and the inadequacy we feel.  It is too much dear Savior – too much – but YOU, dear GOD — You are our ENOUGH.

So many things we are called to remember – so many memories – embarrassing memories – so many reasons for tears we cry – tears that were wept by Jesus before we ever cried out to GOD alone — reasons to hide our face – crying into the pillow – penance – pain – perceiving of our weakness – so many things – the pillow somehow absorbs the pain of the past and the present.  The pillow become the “hand of GOD” – the Hand that is holding the weeping head with eyes – the Hand that sustains our release from these sorrows.

O GOD, what a wonderful thing it is to know that we have the assurance that YOU will never leave us nor forsake us, even unto the end of this present evil age.  O, GOD come to our assistance – O, LORD, make haste to help us.

My Jesus, O Divine Mercy – help us.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


The Voice of Humility

February 17th, 2014

Listening to God’s Voice

Live constantly in GOD alone, speaking to GOD in the silence that is without words — listening to HIM — for His Voice is speaking to you everywhere — and thereby, say nothing audible but the Name of Jesus, whispering His Name always within your soul.  He is always Present — listen to His Voice –for He makes the Way of Mercy and Love in the wilderness of silence in solitude.


Lessons in Humility for the Hermitage

(From the Motherhouse February 15th, 2014 at Midnight)

Pondering the things of GOD it is always Humility that comes to Mind, when we think of Jesus.  The desert father also thought this Way – allowing the Mind of Christ to reign – and thus, we have much to learn dear one.  (Cf. Philippians 2)

Abba Poemen said: “A man ought ever to be absorbing humility and the fear of God, as the nostrils breathe air in and out.”

We must breathe the Holy Spirit into our hearts and exhale the evil that the Spirit of Christ discovers within – it is the work of GOD for evil to be cast out – and we cooperate with His Grace through the mercy of our Beloved – He is the One who casts out, as Perfect Love – all dread.

A brother asked Abba Poemen: “How ought I to behave, in my cell in the place where I live?” The old man answered: “Be as prudent as a stranger; and wherever you are, do not expect your words to be powerful in your presence, and you will find peace.”

GOD watches every movement of the heart and the soul – for we are always in His Presence – we are stewards of the cell GOD gives to us – even in silence and solitude – it is all the property of GOD – and dear one we merely take up the space and time that He has allotted to our littleness.  What we say is not what is important – it is what GOD says that is all important – therefore we listen to the Voice of our LORD to discover what it is we must say, when He calls upon us to speak from what we have heard from Him in the silence.

Our Humility is in GOD alone – we do not stand before Him without the Humility He has manifested in the Son.  He has shown to us His Way, as Abba Poemen also said: “The tools of the soul are these: to cast oneself down in God’s sight; not to lift oneself up; and to put one’s self-will behind one.”   Remember that St. Paul said to the Church at Philippi  – “Let this Mind be in you that was also in Christ Jesus.”

Abba Poemen also said: “Do not put a value on yourself, but cleave to the man who is living a good life.”

Good company begins good works, when the two are there with one another to encourage one another to Love and works of charity.

What are we dear one?  Are we so great that none can approach us?  Are we so sinless?  I think not.

Abba Poemen also said: “A brother asked Abba Alonius: ‘What is lowliness?” And the old man said: To be lower than brute beasts; and to know that they are not condemned.’ “

We would do well to learn from the Humility of some docile animals and avoid the viciousness of the less docile creatures.  Let us recall the Ground of our very being – our Lord Jesus Christ.

Abba Poemen also said: “Humility is the ground whereon the Lord ordered the sacrifice to be offered.”

As we are in Jesus – we are also called to suffer with Him – taking up our Cross to follow Him – there are many Crosses dear one – therefore, we are called to embrace our Cross, whatever it may be for us – the Day of Christ will reveal the Blessedness of the Fruit of bearing this with Jesus.  He treats His friends well in the end – Faithfulness is His Grace to us for perseverance.  It is Good to know the GOD that has come first to bring us the Example – He does not ask of us anything that He cannot perform through us by Grace through Faith in Jesus.

Look to Him that Lives – Look to Jesus.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


Humility of the Heart

February 16th, 2014

Humility of Heart

We think that it is so difficult for us to follow Jesus – yes, I confess it can be difficult, when we consider the pride of our lives dear one – but it is not difficult at all for the monk that has humility from GOD – that is, provided we allow Him to Strengthen us in that following – that Humility that is His Humility. 

(Abba  Isaiah) said to  those who were making a good beginning by putting themselves under the direction of the holy Fathers, ‘As with purple dye, the first coloring is never lost.’ And, ‘Just as young shoots are easily trained back and bent, so it is with beginners who live in submission.’

To live Life in GOD in submission (Humility) – we are living in the Power of GOD’s Grace and Mercy toward us.  GOD controls, when we realize that GOD places souls in our pathway that are there to spiritually guide us.  We see the Wisdom of “two are better than one” – two are able to help one another.  If we follow GOD alone without anyone else – we neglect the Body Life of the Church.  There are “pruners” and “benders” and those who “color” us for the greater Glory of GOD – we are after all (all of us) beginners.

But, listen further:

(Abba Isaiah) also said ‘When God wishes to take pity on a soul and it rebels, not bearing anything and doing its own will, he then allows  it to suffer that which it does not want, in order that it may seek him again.’

GOD allows us to be corrected through more pain that we bring upon our prideful self will.  If we refuse to the end of our days the discipline of another in religious Life – then, we only bring upon our self the fruits of our own willfulness – for the terrible “selfish self-will”, which is a terrible burden for us in the end – when the wood, the hay and the stubble will be burned and we will suffer loss through the fires that St. Paul mentions to the Corinthian Church.

Dear one, the little soul thinks often of the sadness that has come from so much wasted time.  Nevertheless, the wasted time is never wasted completely, if we take the time that we have to surrender fully to GOD alone – He alone is able to bring us into perfect obedience and His Perfect Love.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


The Way of Christ is Humility

February 16th, 2014

The Way

We have read the works of St. Nikolai Velimirovich, who said:

“Do you ask me for the way, exhausted runners?  To what are you racing, sons of men?  If you knew what you were jogging toward, you would know also the Way.  Your destinations are innumerable; therefore your ways are also innumerable.  You collide with one another and curse at each other, because your pathways cut across each other.  Even if there were as many of you as there are blades of grass on the earth, you would not be colliding with one another, if you had one destination and one direction.  And your mouths would quit cursing.”  (Prayers by the Lake, chapter LVIII)

Our mouths are full of cursing, because we lack humility –we have failed to Love GOD over all that offends us – and the children of this age curse mothers and father – curse brothers and sisters – curse their friends and foes alike, all because the soul does not get its way – does not get its way over Him who is the Way, the Truth and the Life – our Beloved Lord Jesus Christ!

Many souls are speeding along their own pathways – souls that are oblivious to the One GOD who has shown us the Way – and the souls run aground – ships without rudders – “wild men” like Ishmael is described in Genesis by the LORD to Hagar:

“And again: Behold, said he, thou art with child, and thou shalt bring forth a son: and thou shalt call his name Ishmael, because the Lord hath heard thy affliction. He shall be a wild man: his hand will be against all men, and all men’s hands against him: and he shall pitch his tents over against all his brethren.”  (Genesis 16: 11, 12)

To this day it is so (it seems) for those who dwell in the “tent of pride” will bring much evil upon others, as well as themselves – this is a warning to ach and every one of us, dear one – our souls are in greatest danger when we are prideful and lack humility before GOD and others who are the creations of GOD – our brothers and sisters, parents, friends an foes alike.  Better to separate and Love humbly from a distance – sufferings the “calumny of men” – yes, injustices – humbly casting your cares upon GOD, for he cares for you – better to do that than pride fully fight back and bring shame upon the Name of Christ Jesus.

O, dear soul, give me more and more the desert places, where we do not have to listen to calumny and complaining – where the happiness of GOD dwells upon the grasses that are numerous – un-conflicting grasses –“Even if there were as many of you as there are blades of grass on the earth, you would not be colliding with one another, if you had one destination and one direction.  And your mouths would quit cursing.”

When we know Jesus – and our hearts are CONSTANTLY FOCUSED upon Jesus – and we refrain from speaking of things that cause discord within our hearts – and I speak to my self – the little soul – for we know how easily we are drawn into conversations that deal with this or that politician – this or that person – this or that whatever!  WE are called unto HOLINESS – and the essence of Holiness is HUMILITY – the Humility that does not seek pre-imminence any longer – but the Humility that is found in the Perfect Love of the Son of GOD!

O wretched man that I am, said St. Paul – he gives us the answer to this when he writes to the Church at Philippi: 

“Let nothing be done through contention, neither by vainglory: but in humility, let each esteem others better than themselves: Each one not considering the things that are his own, but those that are other men’s. For let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But emptied himself, taking the form of a servant, being made in the likeness of men, and in habit found as a man. He humbled himself, becoming obedient unto death, even to the death of the cross.” (Philippians 2: 3-8)

In HUMILITY – for this is who Jesus is – even now in His Glory – Humility. HE calls us to walk as He walked – for He still walks in our midst dear one – in Humility.

Dear one – if you ever come to be on retreat with us – this is what you will hear and hopefully see walking in our midst – His Humility – His Strength made perfect in our weakness – this Mind of Christ.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Meditations from the Motherhouse February 15th, 2014

February 15th, 2014

Prayer to our Beloved

(February 13th, 2014 at 0200 from the hermitage of Mary)

Dear LORD – Blessed be your Holy Name above all names in all the cosmos and the heaven of heavens.  We bow to you, Beloved Creator, Savior-GOD – Love dominates all – Perfect Love has come to save us from our sins – to sanctify us wholly to GOD alone.  We belong to your Majesty – GOD alone!

Fill us with your Perfect Love dear GOD through our Lord Jesus Christ.  LORD, send forth your Spirit and renew the face of the earth – all through Christ Jesus our LORD and Savior.


Our Littleness

We think we are pretty “big fellas” in this world that we think we control.  We “strut and snort around” and arrogantly proclaim that we are really something great and magnificent.  O my, I am smiling dear one, because we are really pretty little –we are little nothings from the greatest to the smallest of folks – for the cosmos is big – and it is in reality all very little to GOD who is the Creator of the cosmos the Word of the Father spoke into being – the microcosm and macrocosm.  We are, therefore in the wake of that Genesis – very little things that GOD has descended in His Mercy to save.

We think of the psalmist’s words _- “Our soul passed through a torrent: peradventure our soul would have passed through waters insupportable.  Blessed be the Lord: who hath not given us over for a prey unto their teeth.  Our soul hath been snatched as a sparrow: out of the snare of the fowlers.”  How Lovingly GOD has descended to take care of the smallest of His creatures – how nothings have the eye of GOD we cannot understand – but we only understand what he has revealed to us – that GOD so Loved the world.

GOD is the giving GOD in Son – the Spirit of the LORD has spoken to us – we are listening and we can also say: “Our soul passed through a torrent: peradventure our soul would have passed through waters insupportable.  Blessed be the Lord: who hath not given us over for a prey unto their teeth.  Our soul hath been snatched as a sparrow: out of the snare of the fowlers.”

Therefore, dear one – stop complaining – start proclaiming His Mercy – continue thanking Him for everything that comes into your little soul’s existence – for His banner over you is Love – His banner, even when we suffer – for He brings you to Himself in His own sufferings,  He sanctifies you through these little sufferings that we might know Him more fully.


Our Earthen Vessels

Dear one, we are surrounded by our own vulnerability – we are all passing from the scene – we believe we will last forever – that all will be okay – that all will happen to others – we will observe the fate of others and not suffer these things ourselves – but dear soul, we are like the snow that fell yesterday and is melting today – the water cycle continues life and death – the things we think will last forever in our present always continue to come and go –there is nothing new under the sun – the things we see become those things that pass away from our eyes.  The Good News, dear one, is that in all of this we sense the Spirit of GOD telling us that we have a Treasure in earthen vessels that shows us that the transcendent Power is of GOD and not of ourselves!

How foolish we are to believe ourselves to be eternal in our present status.  The humanity that we are is passing away as we write today – some have succumbed to sudden death – others have been diagnosed with cancer and whatever other diseases waste us away to the grave that awaits each of us – many deny these things – ignore the warning from GOD – again, thinking they are observers of things that happen to others – ergo, these souls continue to ignore their own “dynamic wasting” and thus will face GOD unprepared.  O, dear one, we need never be unprepared to meet GOD.  Jesus has made the Way for us in His Truth that gives to us of His very Life!

So many choose to ignore – so man souls choose to deny and waste away with little hope – when it is JESUS who is our Blessed Hope.  O, dear one, we dare not be so foolish to think of ourselves as those who will remain here forever and ever – hanging on for the “dear life” that we know – when as was with my own family members – they passed away like the snowflakes come and go. They were also like the vapidity of the snowflakes – coming and going, even though they were the people of GOD – even though they had the expectation of eternal Life through the Son of GOD.  The ebb and flow of this life gives Way to the eternal Life that is in the Truth of Jesus.

We Live in the expectation of our Blessed Hope, the Glorious Appearing of our Great GOD and Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ!

Dear one, we are little nothings – it is best to consider our littleness, when it comes to death – for the only Hope we have in the Person of the Son – the Gift of the Father – now we listen to the Voice of the Holy Spirit that speaks to us of JESUS.  Let us listen and become doers of the Word and not hearers only.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner