End of days

April 10th, 2015

(Motherhouse prior to leaving for hermitage on April 10th, 2015)

We are living in perilous times – times of double standards – times where willfulness has replaced character and good decision-making – where violence replaces Love – where Mercy is put down as weakness – where society degenerates into the “survival of the fittest” – where societal norms become a thing of the past – as pragmatism and progressivism replace purity and politeness.

I am like a pelican in the wilderness – like an owl of the desert.

Soon I will also disappear – disallowed by society – a society that no longer wishes a moral course – but prefers a “political-correct” approach where there we are no longer bound by the Law of GOD (Psalm 2 speaks of these things well in advance of the present age’s culmination). Freedom of speech Is a thing of the past, if you choose to disagree with the “party line.”

It does not matter – happily I am dying daily – I do not wish to Live in such a dead world, where my Beloved LORD Jesus is relegated to an occasional mention – and other things (the world, the flesh and the devil) are more important than the LORD o Glory, my True King.

I Live in the desert – I prefer the prairies that are distant and show my nothingness – I Love the solitude of the grasses that blow in the afternoon winds – the silence that comes when I can only hear the breath and heartbeat that cries out every second or two – “LORD Jesus have Mercy on us sinners.”

I am truly “spent” and “weary” – preferring LIFE with Jesus for Eternity over the misery of such a world where we have Life in HIM – but that is not my choice to act upon – I am His and He is my Savior and LORD – my Sovereign – His Majesty is able to dispose of me as He wills – not my will, but Thine be done, dear GOD!

It is better, says Jeremiah, as I also remember every moment of my day my Beloved LORD JESUS in this psalm of “acrostic triads” of Lamentations, chapter three:

Teth. The Lord is good to them that hope in him, to the soul that seeketh him.
Teth. It is good to wait with silence for the salvation of God.
Teth. It is good for a man, when he hath borne the yoke from his youth.
Jod. He shall sit solitary, and hold his peace: because he hath taken it up upon himself.
Jod. He shall put his mouth in the dust, if so be there may be hope.
Jod. He shall give his cheek to him that striketh him, he shall be filled with reproaches.

It is the passage that follows the Loving-Kindness (Mercy) of GOD who is our Divine Mercy – it is the Comfort of the hermit monk.

I am nothing – and this nothing Loves the LORD who is Some One that Loves us in the Way who is deeper than any ocean. The mercy-Love of GOD is deeper than all the loves of men.

I have seen the “loves” of men fail at every turn – it is only a matter of time before such “loves” fail – but Divine – that is “PERFECT LOVE” – this LOVE never fails – but in Love it challenges us to Love Him first through our actions (with every fiber of our being) – and thus to Love one another in HIM who is LOVE.

We never have to try to Love – we only have to surrender to HIM who is our Perfect Love – and thus we trust in Love and He Loves through us and strengthens us to Love as He Loves.

I am overcome with tears – but it does not matter – I am an anachronism – a useless one – an old man now. I am easy “prey” for corrupt souls who wish to do violence to me – and when I am hit and beaten – I will happily die and be with my Beloved who has never hit me once, even though I deserved it.

You see, as we are drawn more closely to JESUS we experience something of His Passion and learn Compassion in the loneliness and the silence that brings upon our heart the Prayer of REST in HIM alone.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Precious souls in Jesus

April 4th, 2015

(Motherhouse of Mary in the wilderness on Holy Saturday April 4th, 2015)

Men are foolish, if we believe we can as sinful men establish the Kingdom of God on this earth in perfection — not – for only Jesus our True King can do this – yes, the Kingdom is in our midst and we have our True King – but until He Comes in Glory at His Parousia – we are only in an imperfect format of His reign – for he must put all things under His feet!  (I Corinthians 15, read it all)

The desert fathers and mothers rightly taught us that the world system is a shipwreck and we must “Live outside of Babylon” to have the perspective of the place within the heart – that hermitage within.

GOD alone is our Resource – and we fellowship with one another within the Holy Church – we must never forsake the assembling of ourselves together in Holy Communion!  That is also foolish.

We are called as a HOLY PEOPLE OF GOD – there is a corporate Reality as the Body of Christ that we are called to BE and become in Him who is our Head!

Benedictus said:

“L I S T E N  carefully, my child,

to your master’s precepts,

and incline the ear of your heart (Prov. 4:20).

Receive willingly and carry out effectively

your loving father’s advice,

that by the labor of obedience

you may return to Him

from whom you had departed by the sloth of disobedience.

To you, therefore, my words are now addressed,

whoever you may be,

who are renouncing your own will

to do battle under the Lord Christ, the true King,

and are taking up the strong, bright weapons of obedience.

And first of all,

whatever good work you begin to do,

beg of Him with most earnest prayer to perfect it,

that He who has now deigned to count us among His children

may not at any time be grieved by our evil deeds.

For we must always so serve Him

with the good things He has given us,

that He will never as an angry Father disinherit His children,

nor ever as a dread Lord, provoked by our evil actions,

deliver us to everlasting punishment

as wicked servants who would not follow Him to glory.”

WE do not walk in the present darkness in the absence of LIGHT dear soul – we are Light to this world system.  If they do not see this Light that we are IN CHRIST JESUS, then, they will answer to GOD, for we have proclaimed HIM who IS the Light of the world!

The Light shines in the darkness, and the present darkness is not able to overcome HIM – even though it tries, tries and tries again and again – IT WILL FAIL.

Remember, Satan is a defeated foe – but he troubles us, because he knows his time is very very short now.

Jesus Reigns!

Thy Kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven!  Even so, amen and amen…

Dear ones, trust in the LORD JESUS CHRIST who is our TRUE KING – all men are liars.  Let us forsake lying and cheating and Love GOD and one another in Christ – Loving all, even those who hate and persecute us… Jesus is returning in Glory!

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner on holy Saturday.

Leaving now for hermitage of Mary dear friends — Jesus LOVES YOU for He is Risen from the dead — amen — and we are also risen to the newness of Life in HIM and dear souls we shall rise again to Eternal Life, when His Word comes to us Living and the Dead in Christ (I and Ii Thessalonians and I Corinthians 15 et al)

Why weeping is a good thing

March 24th, 2015

(From the Hermitage of Mary in the wilderness on March 21st, 2015)

We hear from the apophthegmata patrum:

“It was said of Abba Arsenius that all his life, whenever he worked with his hands, he kept a handkerchief in his breast because tears fell so often from his eyes.”

I often feel this way dear friends, because of the hardness of my own heart and the hardness I sense in the hearts of so many – there is such spiritual carelessness in these troubling times – and many have the sense of lukewarm-ness in their Faith.

Jesus spoke of this, when He gave His exhortation to the Church at Laodicea in the Revelation, chapter 3 – listen to what Jesus said:

“To the angel of the Church in Laodicea write: There are the words of the true witness, the ruler of GOD’s creation. I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm – neither hot nor cold – I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.” But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked.” (verses 14 to 17)

Dear souls, GOD counsels us to the “gold refined by fire” for the “real riches” – and “white clothes” that we might cover the nakedness – and this is true Righteousness – and “eye salve” to use so that we might truly SEE.

So many operate in the realm of the world, the flesh and the devil.

I judge no one – for I am too rotten a sinner to make any judgments – GOD is our Judge and Redeemer – but beware of “cheap grace” that “lives like hell” down here with the expectation of no accountability when we see Jesus face to face at the Judgment.

There are so many souls that are “lukewarm” –never committed fully one-way or the other – walking always as if one was living, shall we say: “on the fence” rather than Living Life totally in Love with Jesus.

He is never hard to LOVE, when you know Perfect Love Himself!

GOD desires for us the Best of His Love – the Rest from our own laborious dreading through Love in His Mercy. This is found through the exercise of discernment and honesty between our selves and GOD.

There is another story from the desert fathers I appreciate:

A brother asked Abba Ammonas (disciple of Antony) word.” The old man said to him: “Go, and meditate like the criminals in prison. For they keep asking, where is the judge, and when will he come? And because they await him they lament their punishment. The monk ought always to be awaiting his trial, and to chide his soul, saying: c Woe is me, how shall I stand before the judgment seat of Christ? How shall I give an account of my actions?’ If you always meditate like this, you will be saved.”

More and more I sense this as I grow older and think upon what I have done and what I have failed to do, when I dwelled long in the Church at Laodicea.

Too long has the little soul dwelled long in a foreign place and people that knew not GOD as in the Psalm 120:5 – – “Alas, that I abide a stranger in Meshech, dwelling among the tents of Kedar.” This is imagery the strikes the little soul within – “Alas, that I abide a stranger in Meshech (between the Black and Caspian Seas), dwelling among the tents of Kedar.” – thus, I sense in the Presence of Jesus today that I was a dweller in the darkness that is felt in this Song of Ascent, journeying to the Beloved ONE on that Holy Hill of Zion – and dear ones, compared to the Sacred Ground of the Temple, I was like an exile in the Caucasus (exiled between the Caspian and Black Seas with the ancient and violent Scythians) or amongst the fiercest tribes of the Arabian deserts (Kedar).

The violence and the hated encountered in the world system is “alien” to the LOVE OF GOD IN HIS HOLY PLACE.

We come and taste and see that GOD is Good.

Why do we refuse to remain “lukewarm” to Him and not see our NEEDINESS before Him who LOVES us? Loving us, HE IS far more (infinitely more) than a mother or a father of this world – far more than even our closest brothers or sisters or even our closest friends.

Are we so obtuse that we do not realize that you are “wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked?” It may be so – but it never needs to remain so.

Jesus Loves us and rebukes those He Loves – He stands at the door of our heart and He knocks at the door, awaiting His entry and our coming into the fullness of His Grace.

Let us open the door of our heart to Him who is the First Love of the Church – opening to Him fully – fully to His Salvation and Sanctifying Grace to Perfect Love.

This Grace is often found in the wake of a “sea of tears” that fall upon the cloth that GOD will use to “wipe away all tears.”

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Prayer in silence and solitude

March 24th, 2015

(From the Hermitage of Mary in the wilderness on March 23rd, 2015)

We are called to silence and solitude where prayer I a matter of the heart that Rests in GOD alone.  We do not belong to selfish interests – but we belong to GOD alone – He beckons and we come to Him who is written in the volume of the Book to do thy will, O LORD.

“Therefore, when Christ came into the world, He said: ‘Sacrifice and offering you did not desire, but a Body you prepared for Me; with burnt offerings and sin offerings you were not pleased.’  Then I said, ‘Here I am – it is written about me in the Scroll – I have come to do your will, O GOD.’”  (Hebrews 10: 5-7, NIV, cf. Psalm 40: 6-8, a Psalm of David, a Messianic Psalm)

We must see Jesus on every page of Holy Scripture dear souls – LORD that I might see you better.

This is the Essence of the REST we have in the silence an the solitude – it sees JESUS…

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Trusting in GOD alone

January 11th, 2015

(From the Motherhouse in Nashua, Montana on January 11th, 2015)

st antony the greatHere are some wise words from St. Antony of Egypt:

Abba Pambo asked Abba Antony, “What ought I to do?” and the old man said to him, “Do not trust in your own righteousness, do not worry about the past, but control your tongue and your stomach.”

We look to externals all too often, when we should be looking at the internal relationship we ought to have with GOD alone.

Gluttony and the tongue can become our greatest hindrances to intimacy with GOD – for when we are too committed to our body over the Spirit of GOD we are subject to the error of trusting those externals we think we need over our First Love, Jesus.

IF we feed the flesh – we are going to succumb to the strength we give to the flesh, when we should be balanced and moderate in our ministry to the body that is a Gift from GOD – and not our GOD.

Abba Antony said, “I saw the snares that the enemy spreads out over the world and I said groaning, ‘What can get through from such snares?” Then I heard a voice saying to me, “Humility.'”

Humility is the face of anything is the means of Grace that GOD has given to overcome all obstacles.

IF we fail in humility – we can count on failing in the tests of Life.

IF we are humbled under GOD’s Hand – we can count on Him lifting us up through any trial (testing).

Without Jesus, we can do nothing, as He says in His analogy of His Being our True Vine and we the branches abiding in Him – without Him we can do nothing.

Abba Antony also said, “Some have afflicted their bodies by asceticism, but they lack discernment, and so they are far from God.”

Merely beating our bodies down does not give us any fruit that is positive in our intimacy with GOD – we need to Love GOD through serving Him in Perfect Love in the body He has given us to serve with in Love.

We need to discern His Perfect Love and respond to Him in His perfect Love.

Finally today, Antony also said, “Our life and our death is with our neighbor. If we gain our brother, we have gained God, but if we scandalize our brother, we have sinned against Christ.”

This is the supernatural result from Loving GOD – for if we do not Love our neighbor, we cannot say we Love GOD.

The very least we should be doing in LOVING GOD is to be Lovingly Praying for our neighbors.

We may have nothing in common with some neighbors – but we are called by GOD to Love them and wish for them GOD’s Mercy.

May GOD bless and be with you this week.

Trust in the LORD.

“Jesus, I Trust in You” should become our continuing Prayer.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Coming Home to Jesus

January 6th, 2015

(From the Mother House in Nashua, Montana on January 6th, 2015)

Dear soul, we are coming Home to Jesus someday – we do not know the day or the hour – each moment ticks away persistently – and it is the Hour of Divine Mercy – I keep some of the clocks set at this hour, when they stopped at this hour – and the clock hands remind the little soul – remind him on Mercy – the Hour of Mercy – when Jesus died for his sins.

I am Coming Home to Jesus, because my Savior and LORD is my onlyIMG_4409 Hope – my Blessed Hope. He is the One for whom I wait – the Calling is so clear to me – I hear His Voice speaking in the silence of the solitude in the unceasing prayer of the LORD Jesus – His Name is always present – I am walking the Present Presence of Jesus – I am never alone – even when I am alone in GOD alone.

I am Coming Home to Jesus – for I am in Jesus my Beloved – alone in GOD alone – there within my Beloved – and my Beloved is Present in the little soul that I am in Christ. I am Joyful in my Beloved One – the First Love that does not let me go – He holds onto this little soul with all His Perfect Love – I cannot imagine such a world where Jesus is not Present – and I am always in His Present Presence.

I long to see Him with the eyes that are no longer those of Faith – to see His Face, when He Comes for me – unworthy soul that I am – and yet, I have been made worthy, because dear souls, HE alone is WORTHY – and I am Coming Home in Jesus my Beloved King – my Blessed Hope.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

The Righteousness of Christ

December 12th, 2014

IMG_7066(From the Motherhouse in Nashua, Montana on December 12th, 2014)

Dear soul, we are called to be the instruments of GOD’’s Righteousness in this world – Lovers of GOD and therefore Lovers of others in GOD’s Mercy-Love extended to a fallen humanity – to BE in Christ Jesus the instruments of His Mercy toward our fellow sinners.

GOD so Loved the world that He gave His only Begotten Son in order that whosoever trusts in Him may not perish, but have everlasting Life.  WE are GOD’s hands and feet and Voice and whatever we do heartily as unto the LORD.

WE are the instruments of His Mercy-Love toward our fellow sinners – we are redeemed through His Blood and Mercy and we are called to BE to the world what the world has rejected – but, Jesus calls us to become His people, the bearers with Him of the Cross – to suffer martyrdom is required – to be raised up to show the world His Grace in the end of days.

I am seeing more and more our solidarity with the sufferings of our brothers and sisters all over the world.  WE are THEM – THEY ad US – we are members of the same BODY – the BODY OF CHRIST.

It is far – far – far more than a mere theology dear soul – it is right down to the where the rubber meets the road – to the last molecule and atom and quark of who and what we are in Jesus!

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Sentences on the “feelings” of sickness within

December 3rd, 2014

(from the Mother-house in Nashua, Montana on December 3rd, 2014 at 0030 in the morning)

Within the little soul there is a sense of physical breakdown – a sense of the decline that comes to the whole of humanity – and he is not immune to any of these things.

He knows his time is growing shorter by the minute – this next week some tests are scheduled to be done – he does not really want to do these tests, because he is resolved to Love GOD – and would rather “not know” anything but that GOD Loves him and he wants to be forever with the LORD JESUS who Saves him and Sanctifies him.

My Beloved may dispose of the little soul in any way He desires – I am His alone – and must state that I accept anything that He does with this body and soul.

I do not wish to “hold onto” this world with all of its tragic rebellion against my Beloved.

I desire only to walk with GOD, much like Enoch walked with GOD – and I sense that the holiness of Enoch is far greater than any holiness that I might have – so, I rely entirely on the Holiness that is in GOD alone through our LORD Jesus Christ.

IMG_7061I have in the body been feeling weaker – there are more aches and pains I suppose – there is also a sense of “mellowing” about all the problems that face the world system in rebellion against the LORD and His Messiah.

I am thinking more in penance over my past sins – the sins that remained inside of the mind – the thinking sins – the things I never acted upon openly, but they are still sins that I needed to confess to my Beloved.

They have been confessed – I acknowledged them before my First Love.  He has forgiven me – my tears are still present in His Presence – I will not lift up my head until He tells me to lift my head and look into His Face.

I have written about this in many ways dear soul.

I suppose, it does not matter how I feel physically, mentally and spiritually – but, what does matter is that we all are declining and need to completely rely upon (and that is Trust).

TRUST FULLY the LORD JESUS with all of our heart (our innermost being) that we have, whereby He has given to us to trust Him with in this “present time – space fabric” – trusting in His Word.

I am so out of touch with people – thinking more like a desert owl than a man.  I wish I could just disappear into the grasslands and be absorbed into the snow and grasslands – but I am a human being and it is more complicated than just being absorbed into the environment.

There is a need to be available in the silence and the solitude to admit others into the infinite space of the solitude of GOD.

There is greater space and time there in that “fabric” of His “mantle” than all the space and time of the cosmos.

I am a weak soul – I must be alone in order to be with other people – without being alone in GOD and with GOD walking like Enoch walked – I have nothing to give but aches and pains.

I confess my weakness is needing GOD ALONE – for I have fail GOD ALONE too many times, when this little soul failed to spend time alone in GOD.

Weakness abounds within this “chief of sinners” – I deserve death and dismemberment – I deserve separation from my Beloved GOD, our Beloved First Love, Christ Jesus.

Yes, I deserve this second death – BUT GOD in His Mercy saw fit to reach down and Save and Sanctify this little soul.

I am declining in this stillness – I feel it even now as I write these words.  But, there is no decline in the LOVE I know and sense for GOD and those we pray for in this world.

The people we know do not know the prayer we speak of – but, GOD KNOWS.

The weakness of the fleshly body that we have is a distraction to fervent prayer so often – we do not “feel like praying” – so the Holy Spirit cries out in the words that cannot be uttered by mere human flesh and blood – this weakness – and the prayers are heard by the Beloved One.

O, Jesus teach us to pray without ceasing the prayer of Rest.

My JESUS – Divine Mercy – BE to this little soul and so many others that Love you – BE to us and Become our ALL – our Focus – our Worthiness, where the selfish interests fade into the oblivion of time and space forever to be lost – that we might have union with GOD.

O, Divine Grace – what words can express how this little soul feels in these times of rebellion – when death that is Living Face to face with you is better than the life we live in this weakness of mere flesh and blood – where distractions abound that take us away from Beholding your Face?

Yes, dear Savior – it IS more complicated than this – this Loving GOD that must Love one another, as Christ so Loves the mankind He came down to Save and Sanctify one at a time.

There is the Church – the called out ones – for no man is an island.

My GOD – I am weak and weakening – but, my Beloved is Strong and Strengthening this weakness even now – for your Strength is made perfect in my weakness.

O Come, Let us adore HIM.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Late November postings

November 21st, 2014

Lethargy and the walk with GOD

It is easy to wear out in mind and body – we need to pray for endurance and “occupy until He comes” – we work until Jesus comes – we Live for GOD not by sleeping – but through being alive in Christ and functioning as He calls us to BE in Christ Jesus.

“When the holy Abba Antony lived in the desert he was beset by ‘accidie’ – lethargy – , and attacked by many sinful thoughts. He said to God, ‘Lord, I want to be saved, but these thoughts will not leave me alone. What shall I do in my affliction? How can I be saved?’ A short while afterwards, when he got up to go out, Antony saw a man like himself sitting at his work, getting up from his work to pray, then sitting down and plaiting a rope, then getting up again to pray. It was an angel of the Lord sent to correct and reassure him. He heard the angel saying to him, “Do this and you will be saved.” At these words, Antony was filled with joy and courage. He did this, and he was saved.”  (from the Apophthegmata partum)

We think there is some “magical thing” that will free us from these “feelings” that come upon us – not so – Wisdom dictates that we “occupy” – we WORK and we PRAY in that order.  GOD works then through us to accomplish what He has called us to do in HIM.

Recall St. Paul’s letter to the Church at Philippi:

“Wherefore, my dearly beloved, (as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but much more now in my absence,) with fear and trembling work out your salvation. For it is God who works in you, both to will and to accomplish, according to his good will. And do ye all things without murmurings and hesitations; That you may be blameless, and sincere children of God, without reproof, in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation; among whom you shine as lights in the world.”  (The Epistle of St. Paul to the Philippians 2: 12-15)

Notice we work and God works!

The world wants the “free ride” – but those who are truly Christians do not want anything but prayer and work – it saves us from the lethargy dear one… trust GOD and try this approach and watch the accidie (lethargy) lessened!

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

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Trusting GOD through Christ Jesus

Herein we write as though this might be the final note I am allowed to write while here – for GOD is my Beloved – and I am His – He inhabits the whole of my heart – and my desire is in Jesus alone – for he Loves the little soul – and the little soul Loves Him.

IMG_4614Dear soul, the Holy Spirit directs us in His Comforting ministry to trust in Jesus and come to the Father – Holy Trinity One GOD. The little soul proclaims HIM – and Loves His Church: “I will praise thee, O LORD, with my whole heart; I will show forth all thy marvelous works. I will be glad and rejoice in thee; I will sing praise to thy Name, O thou Most High.” (Psalm 9: 1, 2)

GOD has granted us 37 degrees F today – and it appears we will be getting warmer – perhaps, the LORD will allow the little soul to work some in the outside warmth to complete more of the winter preparations – Bless His Holy Name.

The portion upon my heart is this in Modern English (Psalm 9: 11- 14, Modern English):

“Make songs of praise to the Lord, whose house is in Zion: make his doings clear to the people. When he makes search for blood, he has them in his memory: he is not without thought for the cry of the poor. Have mercy on me, O Lord, and see how I am troubled by my haters; let me be lifted up from the doors of death; So that I may make clear all your praise in the house of the daughter of Zion: I will be glad because of your salvation.”

Dear soul – GOD is fully Trustworthy to consider perfectly the humble – the poor, when He makes Judgment – He remembers His own.

The world system omits and marginalizes as “collateral damage” so many souls that are “too little to matter” – and so many souls fall through the “safety net” – and we see more of this is happening from all sides of the political spectrum in the world’s ways of doing things – even the Church tends to marginalize souls that are “not important enough for her larger plans” – and dear one we are seeing so many lies from mouths speaking great “swelling words” – like it was said in the Holy Scriptures (St. Jude 1: 16) – but the solution is this: “But you, my loved ones, keep in memory the words which were said before by the Apostles of our Lord Jesus Christ, How they said to you, In the last days there will be men who, guided by their evil desires, will make sport of holy things.’

We have been warned ahead of time of all that speaks of the mindset of Babylon – the world system – and we declare openly now that we can only trust GOD alone – for men will fail us – but dear soul GOD never changes His purpose and Grace toward us sinners – He keeps His Word – He has Mercy on sinners – and calls us all to repentance ad Faith to follow Him!

Let us take up our Cross and follow Jesus.

Dear soul, trust in the LORD with all your heart – and lean not to your own understanding…

Today, we sense GOD’s calling back to the hermitage of Mary in the Wilderness, affectionately know as “The Hermitage Camp”. GOD’s Grace has allow this – we are His and He is our Beloved.

As the little soul grows older in Jesus – he senses within the necessity to respond to GOD in Perfect Love – for His Love toward this sinner is Perfect Love – the Divine Mercy is so very deep – it is beyond our ability to comprehend – perhaps, we shall understand a little better when we see Jesus face to Face – our Risen LORD face to Face – and then we shall know as we are known – and we shall be like Him for we shall see Him as He is!

We can trust GOD alone completely.

All the politicians of the world (some perhaps even mean well and are not self-serving liars) – but they all fall so short of GOD dear soul – be not deceived. Deception is everywhere – and trust GOD, for these souls that deceive will stop at nothing to bring about their agendas – GOD alone is the Worthy KING (revelation chapter 4ff) – for He – only Jesus alone with the Holy Trinity One GOD is Worthy to Reign forever and ever – “And He shall judge the world in righteousness, He shall minister judgment to the people in uprightness. The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble.” (Psalm 9: 8, 9)

How this is so foreign to men these days – and how it is so True in GOD these days – as we Live in Christ in expectation of the Blessed Hope?

Dear soul, today we leave for Hermitage – trust GOD is with you – pray for this sinner – trust in GOD alone through Christ Jesus – He is our Blessed Hope.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

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November 15th, 2014

Befriending the silence

(from the Hermitage of Mary, November 13th, 2014)

We are often uncomfortable with the silence, feeling that we must keep the air coming through our vocal cords in order to dispel the “terrible lull” in the conversation that may be taking place between two friends.  We need not be so uncomfortable with the silence, if we consider “befriending” it, rather than being uncomfortable with it.

You see, GOD dwells in the silence as much as He dwells in the voices we have when we communicate His Mercy and Love toward one another.  I think though that we would do well, if we would simply befriend the silence, as we do the friendships that we appreciate so much in Life.  They are both gifts from GOD – Graces He gives.

Gossip is not better than silence, dear one – it shares what is no ones business, but the one (or few) that GOD intended.  Why do we feel like we need to “mind everyone else’s business” in order to “help them” – when it is our own life that needs the attention over the “help” the gossip seems to make it their business to help others to “fix” in the other person’s life?

I will never understand, except to suggest that such gossip souls have instabilities within that simply must make sure “something is fixed” since not much is “fixed inside of them”?  Who knows?  Too many “do-gooders” seem to want to “fix the faults of others” over their own necessities to fix.

Remember, gossiping is judging another – Jesus told us in St. Matthew’s Gospel chapter 7: 1-5:

“Judge not, that you may not be judged, for with what judgment you judge, you shall be judged: and with what measure you mete, it shall be measured to you again. Any why do you see the mote that is in thy brother’s eye; and do not see the beam that is in thy own eye? Or how do you say to thy brother: Let me cast the mote out of thy eye; and behold a beam is in thy own eye? Thou hypocrite, cast out first the beam in thy own eye, and then you will see to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.”

This is dangerous territory for us – when we open our mouths in judgment toward others – we may not know all the circumstances – and we seem to have no problem telling thousands about it, assuming too much, when we do so?

IMG_6719GOD sees and listens to this injustice, dear soul.

All of us – even the folks that cannot seem to stop gossiping – we all need to “befriend the silence” and seek from GOD the grace of keeping our mouths shut – and thereby listening to GOD.  The best counselors are good listeners – the best counselors say little to nothing – saving their best counsel for a few salient sentences that are said in a non-judgmental manner.

Dear one, GOD will hold those who practice malicious gossip accountable.  He will hold accountable the souls that say things, even “innocently”.  To those that much is given, much will be required dear one.  We will give an accounting for what we have been given.  Words can be used to bless or to curse.

Remember, dear soul what St. James chapter 3 said: “…the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is placed among our members, who defiles the whole body, and inflames the wheel of our nativity, being set on fire by hell.”

Remember also, “For in many things we all offend. If any man offends not in word, the same is a perfect man. He is able also with a bridle to lead about the whole body.”

Let us become doers of this word of the LORD and not merely hearers deceiving our own self.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

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Confession of a repentant sinner

(from the hermitage of Mary November 15th, 2014)

I confess, dear soul that I am a terrible sinner – and all my past sins are such that those who saw them could probably never forgive them – none perhaps can forgive me but GOD alone.  I sense we are all much like this – but, we all seem to have our distant “observers and admirers” that know of our past sins and they “observe and admire” and perhaps “relish” the excitement of condemning us to the fires of hell – or they wish to marginalize us and tell others we are a “waste of time”.

The tongue is set on fire of hell dear soul.

I must confess with my own tongue they are probably right – for without GOD I am truly a useless piece of garbage – and my life is meaningless without Jesus – and, yes, I am “a waste of time” – merely “taking up space” in the minds of those pharisaic souls that need to feel better about themselves by condemning this little one who knows he is a sinner that has repented and Loves GOD, the one true GOD who Loves – yes, it is this little soul who has repented of his sins.

For a number of years, we have sensed many who hold in the their minds the attitude that is antagonistic toward this monastic soul (who lives alone most of the time) – these have expressed they feel he is unworthy of the graces GOD has poured forth upon the little soul.  Dear soul, yes, they may be right – and they do me a blessed favor by teaching me to trust more in GOD alone than to trust in the souls who say evil things about this sinner.

I forgive them.

It is all our Beloved LORD GOD’s matter to handle in His Mercy and Perfect Love and His Righteousness.

The owl of the desert hoots quietly in his cell – he is comforted by the warmth here tonight – it is a cold night outside tonight – perhaps, it will get as low as 10 degrees below zero.  But, it is warm in the hermitage cell here – the propane heater is working well – seems to be lasting a lot longer than I expected it to last – these things happen without explanation – thanks be to GOD.

Kitty Marie is sleeping over by the cove heater.  These creatures GOD gives to us as little “friends” are unconditional in their Love – they are good examples for humans – we can learn from them a thing or two about something called, “trusting GOD”.

What thrills my heart most is the entry into the Advent and Christmas season – I am pleased that our Blessed Immanuel came down to be with us – (GOD with us) – to Live out the Incarnation – to show us Him who is in reality: the Way, the Truth and the Life – to show us that GOD CARES and does not condemn and gossip about those He Loves.  You see, when we Love one another, we say little to nothing about others, for we have so many sins of our own that GOD has forgiven, and like Abba Moses who carried an old basket filled with sand that was leaking from it to the council – the sand poured out from the basket, as he declared like his sins are poured out for all to see – therefore, how can he judge another?

I cannot judge another soul, because my sins are too great for me to judge anyone.

I can see and call sin what it is – but I cannot say about anyone they are a “waste of time.”

No, I can only cry out and say to all who see me as an enemy – I can say this, “I Love you, even though I keep a distance from you” – and I know that GOD has a wonderful plan and purpose for your Life as well, and am thankful dear soul that you are a far less miserable sinner than I myself am before our Savior and LORD Jesus Christ.

IMG_6870I long for the Day of Christ, when these things will be distant memories to be forever forgotten, when we shall sin no more in thought, word or deed – O, Perfect Love come.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

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Confession of a repentant sinner

(from the hermitage of Mary November 15th, 2014)

I confess, dear soul that I am a terrible sinner – and all my past sins are such that those who saw them could probably never forgive them – none perhaps can forgive me but GOD alone.  I sense we are all much like this – but, we all seem to have our distant “observers and admirers” that know of our past sins and they “observe and admire” and perhaps “relish” the excitement of condemning us to the fires of hell – or they wish to marginalize us and tell others we are a “waste of time”.

The tongue is set on fire of hell dear soul.

I must confess with my own tongue they are probably right – for without GOD I am truly a useless piece of garbage – and my life is meaningless without Jesus – and, yes, I am “a waste of time” – merely “taking up space” in the minds of those pharisaic souls that need to feel better about themselves by condemning this little one who knows he is a sinner that has repented and Loves GOD, the one true GOD who Loves – yes, it is this little soul who has repented of his sins.

For a number of years, we have sensed many who hold in the their minds the attitude that is antagonistic toward this monastic soul (who lives alone most of the time) – these have expressed they feel he is unworthy of the graces GOD has poured forth upon the little soul.  Dear soul, yes, they may be right – and they do me a blessed favor by teaching me to trust more in GOD alone than to trust in the souls who say evil things about this sinner.

I forgive them.

It is all our Beloved LORD GOD’s matter to handle in His Mercy and Perfect Love and His Righteousness.

The owl of the desert hoots quietly in his cell – he is comforted by the warmth here tonight – it is a cold night outside tonight – perhaps, it will get as low as 10 degrees below zero.  But, it is warm in the hermitage cell here – the propane heater is working well – seems to be lasting a lot longer than I expected it to last – these things happen without explanation – thanks be to GOD.

IMG_6954Kitty Marie is sleeping over by the cove heater.  These creatures GOD gives to us as little “friends” are unconditional in their Love – they are good examples for humans – we can learn from them a thing or two about something called, “trusting GOD”.

What thrills my heart most is the entry into the Advent and Christmas season – I am pleased that our Blessed Immanuel came down to be with us – (GOD with us) – to Live out the Incarnation – to show us Him who is in reality: the Way, the Truth and the Life – to show us that GOD CARES and does not condemn and gossip about those He Loves.  You see, when we Love one another, we say little to nothing about others, for we have so many sins of our own that GOD has forgiven, and like Abba Moses who carried an old basket filled with sand that was leaking from it to the council – the sand poured out from the basket, as he declared like his sins are poured out for all to see – therefore, how can he judge another?

I cannot judge another soul, because my sins are too great for me to judge anyone.

I can see and call sin what it is – but I cannot say about anyone they are a “waste of time.”

No, I can only cry out and say to all who see me as an enemy – I can say this, “I Love you, even though I keep a distance from you” – and I know that GOD has a wonderful plan and purpose for your Life as well, and am thankful dear soul that you are a far less miserable sinner than I myself am before our Savior and LORD Jesus Christ.

I long for the Day of Christ, when these things will be distant memories to be forever forgotten, when we shall sin no more in thought, word or deed – O, Perfect Love come.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

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A few sentences on Veterans Day

(from the hermitage of Mary 11 November 2014)

Solitude is the place where GOD re-models you and me – to spend all your time with people only tends to tear down what GOD’s re-modeling program is doing.

When someone says something about you that is negative – it is best to remain silent and return into solitude alone with GOD – unceasing prayer is the only Pathway to true Peace in GOD alone.

Have GOD before your eyes always – and not the opinions of sinful men.

Trust in God alone – trust the Holy Scriptures – in doing so, you will find Peace.  If you trust in men – trust well that you will have nothing but misery!

Finally, the goal of Life is GOD – not people – for it is only in GOD that we are enabled to minister to other people.  When we minister – it is best never to tell any others about it – but, Just see to it that only GOD and the angels know of your ministries.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner