August 30th, 2014

Dear soul, for us poor sinners the flesh is so persistent in its demands – and it must be entertained, paid attention to, cared for – pampered and made to feel “wanted” – it becomes such a waste of time for us, as we observe how wonderful we are to look upon – so many “selfies” – yes, I am guilty as well on Facebook – sometimes people want to see who is writing about things – not many “selfies”, for we have a few that can take a few photos to fill the pictorial voids in our daily narratives.

Please do not misunderstand me – we have to take care of ourselves – we have a self that is a self – and, dear one, the body we have from GOD is in fact a gift from GOD – it is the temple of the Holy Spirit for a soul – but, dear soul, the fallen man – the old self – it tends to persistently want to spend every moment in keeping the flesh of what is the “old man” entertained and “feeling right”.

O, my… what a state of affairs!

My, how ego-centered we become in our willingness to look at our selves!

There is such a need for this kind of “entertainment” – a pampering of the false self – the “flesh” – it seems to be the “O, look at me” aspect of our selfish nature.  “O, my – Do I not look so marvelous in your eyes?”

O, for the Mind that is of Christ that will let the little soul forget so much this concern for the flesh that takes his little Mind away from the Mind that is Christ’s – he should always be in that Mind that is preferring over the flesh that Mind of our Beloved One (Philippians chapter 2) – the One who even set aside the pampering of the Flesh and Blood that He IS (but now Glorified) – laying aside His Divine Prerogatives, HE Became Man – preferring to dwell in our midst as Man, very Man – as GOD, very GOD – setting aside all the pampering of so much materialism – O, Lamb of GOD – the Perfect Love that GOD IS!

We are so contrasted with the Lord Jesus Christ – the Last Adam.  HIS eyes were always fixed upon Jerusalem.

IMG_6384Human Pride demands so much of us, while Humility demands so little, except to Love GOD more than all things – to prefer nothing before the LOVE of CHRIST!  Pride must BE (so often) in the forefront of the old man’s mind and seems to always want to get the honor – while, Humility is willing not to be so “entertained” – so “pampered” – it is willing to lay aside its glory and give honor and glory to HIM.

What is humility dear soul?

Humility is to look on oneself as dust and ashes. The humble person says, “Who am I? And who considers me to be anything? Who am I to deal with people for I am powerless?”

Humility does not require being entertained all the time, for the humble person walks submissively in his ways, never deeming himself equal to others. And when he is despised and rejected he does not get angry.

How many of us have failed in this manner – we desire the entertainment of our opinions to be honored always and in every place?

“Humility is to hold oneself as guilty and to find that one has done nothing good before God. It is to maintain silence, looking on oneself as nothing. It is to reject one’s inclinations, to look down to the ground, bearing death before his eyes, safeguarding himself from lying. It consists in not speaking, falsehood or arguing with someone who is older than you are, enduring insults joyfully, detesting comfort and training oneself in hardship, never distressing anyone.” ~ St. Abba Isaiah

O, dear one – trust and walk in repentance with Jesus – it is the Way of the Heart that is the Mind of Christ.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner



The Way of God alone

August 30th, 2014

“True escape from the world is for a person to know how to control his tongue, wherever he might be,” Abba Tithoes said.

IMG_6394When we are tempted to speak when we should remain silent – we are tempted to be again a part of Babylon – and all we gained through silence alone in GOD is lost in the wake of too many words. Words kill the spiritual life of the monk – they destroy his soul, even as the enemy destroyed the soul of Adam in the beginning. The Lamb of GOD was silent before His accusers – through the silence of the Father toward the Son – the Son responded with few words from the Cross – He showed us the Way to the Father – the Spirit of GOD bears Witness to the Silence in GOD – the Way to the Father is to cease our speaking and listen to the Word of the LORD in the silence that comes in GOD alone.

We hear so much fallacy today through too much speaking. IF we do speak – we ought to speak to edify – weigh our words – make them few in number – and we should always seek to build up others, not to build up the self.

Remember – “In these days (GOD) hath spoken to us by his Son, whom he hath appointed heir of all things, by whom also he made the world.” (Hebrews 1: 2)

You see dear one, when GOD spoke — He speaks once and for all — and the world continues to obey His Word — His Voice forever and ever.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

In God alone we trust

August 24th, 2014

It is better to trust in the LORD that to put your confidence in man.  Many years ago I read this and it resonated with the little soul, (found in the context of Psalm 118)

IMG_5385Dear one, we are fools indeed if we trust in humanity – the promises of politicians – the promises of spouses and children, fathers and mothers.  The Life we have in Christ is the trust in the only Person that is Worthy of all our trust.  All other human beings (as good as they might be) – all others are governed many times by anger, greed and selfish interests that would lay aside any commitments that they might have toward another.

Humanity has proven this all too often – starting in our memory today with the disciples that slept through the agony of Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane to the present day that witnesses Christians (men, women and children) being slaughtered in the name of some bloodthirsty “god”.  We offer no details of this sickening abuse of religion.

O, dear one – the world is watching and men of power are doing nothing – and we continue as though nothing is happening – perhaps, we should follow the example of the patriarch Jacob and tear our garments and sit in ashes and dust, mourning his son, Joseph, whose coat of many colors lay before us, soaked in the blood of the martyrs.

It is Sunday – GOD is with us always – we weep inside, raining the tears with angels – and we accomplish only the remembrance of His Sufferings – manifested again in the sufferings of saints in the world, who loved not their lives even unto death – their souls are under the altar.  GOD sees and hears them – their robes of white linen have been given to them and they are told to await the Righteous King who comes to Judge in Righteousness.

I am a pelican in the wilderness – an owl of the desert.

I know nothing but of JESUS our True King – the same who will return in Glory to Judge the living and the dead.

I see Him who is my True King – and your True King – He calls us to Trust in Him in these perilous times until he returns to make all things new.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


sentences of Love

August 23rd, 2014

Psalm 123 (122) says this
Unto thee do I lift up mine eyes, O thou that sittest in the heavens.
Behold, as the eyes of servants [look] unto the hand of their master, As the eyes of a maid unto the hand of her mistress; So our eyes [look] unto Jehovah our God, Until he have mercy upon us.
Have mercy upon us, O Jehovah, have mercy upon us; For we are exceedingly filled with contempt.
Our soul is exceedingly filled With the scoffing of those that are at ease, And with the contempt of the proud
Dear soul, we can say anything we want to say about how much we Love GOD — but, this defines Love for GOD — He became a Servant of His very LOVE for you and me — and we are called to this kind of Love spoken of in the Psalmist’s Voice that cries out the Heart of GOD.
IT sees itself — this LOVE — in HUMILITY under the hand of GOD our Savior and Sanctifier!
WEE are mere creatures dear one — GOD is our CREATOR and LOVE. Listen to the Voice of GOD… He calls us to perfect Love!
abba anthony the repentant sinner
When GOD touches a soul it is changed — it repents and is transformed day by day more into His Image ( II Cor. 5:17) — we do not remain as we were — we become new creation in Christ Jesus. Therefore, allow Him to touch you fully and thus transform us fully in Christ. We will stand before Him soon — trust Him and become all you are in HIM.
We are like grass — we are passing from this scene. LOVE HIM without any reservation.
Lately I have read Ezekiel 18 — I share this with you — ponder it well in the Douay translation– ponder what it says and means, abba

Eze 18:1 The word of Jehovah came unto me again, saying,
Eze 18:2 What mean ye, that ye use this proverb concerning the land of Israel, saying, The fathers have eaten sour grapes, and the children`s teeth are set on edge?
Eze 18:3 As I live, saith the Lord Jehovah, ye shall not have [occasion] any more to use this proverb in Israel.
Eze 18:4 Behold, all souls are mine; as the soul of the father, so also the soul of the son is mine: the soul that sinneth, it shall die.
Eze 18:5 But if a man be just, and do that which is lawful and right,
Eze 18:6 and hath not eaten upon the mountains, neither hath lifted up his eyes to the idols of the house of Israel, neither hath defiled his neighbor`s wife, neither hath come near to a woman in her impurity,
Eze 18:7 and hath not wronged any, but hath restored to the debtor his pledge, hath taken nought by robbery, hath given his bread to the hungry, and hath covered the naked with a garment;
Eze 18:8 he that hath not given forth upon interest, neither hath taken any increase, that hath withdrawn his hand from iniquity, hath executed true justice between man and man,
Eze 18:9 hath walked in my statutes, and hath kept mine ordinances, to deal truly; he is just, he shall surely live, saith the Lord Jehovah.
Eze 18:10 If he beget a son that is a robber, a shedder of blood, and that doeth any one of these things,
Eze 18:11 and that doeth not any of those [duties], but even hath eaten upon the mountains, and defiled his neighbor`s wife,
Eze 18:12 hath wronged the poor and needy, hath taken by robbery, hath not restored the pledge, and hath lifted up his eyes to the idols, hath committed abomination,
Eze 18:13 hath given forth upon interest, and hath taken increase; shall he then live? he shall not live: he hath done all these abominations; he shall surely die; his blood shall be upon him.
It matters how we Live in GOD — good works come from a transformed LIFE… we are saved and sanctified by Grace through Faith — but the Faith that saves is never alone — GOD is working through us as we surrender in Love to perfect love, abba
GOD calls us to have the MIND of Christ during these times of living in the Presence of our Beloved One, Jesus. Ponder Philippians 2 carefully,

For let this mind be in you which [was] also in Christ Jesus;
who, subsisting in the form of God, did not esteem it an object of rapine to be on an equality with God;
but emptied himself, taking a bondman`s form, taking his place in [the] likeness of men;
and having been found in figure as a man, humbled himself, becoming obedient even unto death, and [that the] death of [the] cross.
Do not forsake the assembling of yourself together with others of like Faith on Sunday — go the the House of GOD and receive the Eucharist and His Word — go and worship HIM.
Returning to hermitage of Mary afternoon tomorrow — thank you for your prayers — we are a couple weeks away from the new little chapel building being placed on the hermitage for God’s glory and to reserve the Blessed Sacrament and altar for the Eucharist. Your prayers and support are appreciated.

abba anthony

GOD CARES even if we do not see it

August 23rd, 2014

(from the Motherhouse in Nashua, Montana, 23 August 2014)

IMG_4633We live in perilous times – many things are happening all around us and we are whispering within, “Where is GOD?”  We see the perplexity amongst nations – the vileness of evil men killing and believing inside themselves that they are “doing their malicious ‘god’ a favor” by killing all “infidels” that do not go along with their false deity and his thirst for the blood of children, Jews and Christians!

Yet GOD is close to comfort us!

Dear soul, these are signs of the time – signs Jesus and the apostles of the Lamb spoke of in the Holy Scriptures.

I can only mention a few here; otherwise no one will have the patience to read this little post.  I am smiling over how little we really want to know what GOD has spoken ahead of these times – we prefer to complain rather than read and heed the Word of the LORD.  Yes, I am guilty as well.

GOD has said to us, when St. Paul spoke to St. Timothy (in his second letter to Timothy (3:1-8):

“Know also this that, in the last days, shall come dangerous times. Men shall be lovers of themselves, covetous, haughty, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, wicked, Without affection, without peace, slanderers, incontinent, unmerciful, without kindness, Traitors, stubborn, puffed up, and lovers of pleasures more than of God: Having an appearance indeed of godliness, but denying the power thereof. Now these avoid.  For of these sorts are they who creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, who are led away with different desires: Ever learning, and never attaining to the knowledge of the truth.  Now as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses, so these also resist the truth, men corrupted in mind, reprobate concerning the faith.”

You see, the problem we have in humanity is SIN – self-will and disobedience to the Law of GOD – the Law that says Love GOD fully and Love your neighbor as yourself!  Dear one, this is not being done, when we see heads rolling and people hating so much – hating we add in the “name of god the merciful”?

GOD is not like that – for GOD is MERCY – He is not merely merciful.  GOD demonstrated Mercy in that He came down in SON and died for us (and our sins) and rose from the dead and IS COING AGAIN IN GLORY to put down this madness we see “in the name of god”!

What is past is prologue – “as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses” so there is resistance today with the Law of GOD’s Love and Mercy and as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses” so GOD will resist the proud and arrogant souls that persecute the Righteous One – remember “Saul, Saul why do you persecute Me”?   “I AM Jesus whom your persecute.”

When His People are persecuted – He is being persecuted dear soul.

Remember this when you suffer rightly or “wrongly”.

I am a child of the KING – our true King, Jesus.

My KING is returning – and He is coming quickly!  (cf. the promises of Revelation, chapter 22)

Jannes and  Jambres have only a short time left dear one – GOD is in the Eternal Present and time someday will be no more!


Prayer is our mighty weapon to the pulling down of enemy strongholds.

I know of an obscure and sinful soul who was abandoned by his family, suffered bankruptcy, was robbed of his inheritance, was cast out of the mainstream; was misunderstood by many and rejected by many more souls – I know this soul Loves GOD and Lives in GOD by Grace through Faith, for he confesses Him and Loves Him openly.

Dear one, to TRUST in GOD ALONE is not a sin – it is to do what we are all called to do in Christ Jesus.

We err greatly when we think that GOD does not care about us – and we are confused because all is not going well with us in all things – we need to proclaim with Job dear one – “Though He slay me, yet, will I trust Him!”

Job suffered the loss of all things material and bodily – then, GOD restored him in the end… so it will be with all of us.  Job was a righteous Gentile – we are in Christ, the Righteous One – He is the Sun of Righteousness that descends soon with healing in its wings!  (said, Malachi, the prophet)

I choose to trust GOD and forget leaning to my own understandings.. let us acknowledge Jesus in all of our ways, as we walk the Enoch walk with GOD alone!

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner





Dealing with discouragement

August 22nd, 2014

We are surrounded with the demonic and very human feelings of discouragement.  Anxieties seem to press in from all side for most of us – some are discouraged beyond measure and feeling like the world is caving in upon their soul.  Over the years the little soul has learned to deal with discouragement – and the remedy has come through “casting all your cares upon the LORD – for He cares for you.”

IMG_4601Yes, dear one – GOD cares for you and me – this GOD who created the heavens and the earth – this GOD of the cosmos with all of its vastness – this GOD comes down to where we are located in space and in time – and HE cares for each and every one of us!

So many discouraging things these days come into our hearing and our view – we are touched with the feelings of discouragement everywhere! It seems!

Yes, I hear that voice of the skeptic – the person who has no Faith saying: “How can GOD allow these terrible things to happen and care?”  I hear this all the time – for it is the voice of discouragement.  It is filled with the seeds of doubt and despair, when GOD does care – caring enough to send us His Son upon the Cross!

It is the greatest wok of Faith in a man to face the discouragement to his dying breath and know that GOD cares for him – for her.  The Voice of the LORD comes through the silence and the solitude in the midst of the prayer unceasing in the heart – and it dispels the discouragement with the Encourager’s Voice – the Voice of the Holy Spirit – the Love that will not let us go – the Comforter has come and He brings us to the Man of sorrows who was acquainted with grief – the Risen LORD JESUS that says – “Come unto Me all you that labor and are heavy laden-ed — and I will give you REST.

WE are CALLED to TRUST in the LORD with all of our heart – leaning not to our own understandings – but in all our ways to acknowledge Him – and HE will DIRECT our PATHS!

O, dear one, how discouraging things may become – but for the Grace and the Mercy of GOD through JESUS and the Comforter who has come.  So, dear one, when we are discouraged – flee immediately and often to JESUS and pray in His Name for help in these times of our need.  He comes quietly in the night and brings us Light and Joy within that dispels the heartache.

O, Lord Jesus, Creator of all things – gladden the heart of the little soul – and all the discouraged souls – make them strong in the Joy of the LORD – we pray these things in Jesus’ Name.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Into the night of the Cross

August 21st, 2014

Dear one,

The Cross of Jesus Christ is an offense – and I am certain that some will be offended by my speaking of the Cross – and the Person who embraced the Cross for the Salvation of our soul.  People do not want to hear about it’s real meaning – or to even hear about it!

IMG_5053It is through the holy Cross that GOD chose to Love us through the Perfect Love that is His Beloved Son.

GOD gave to us – to you and to me – He gave to us – gives to us – He gave to us His only Son to die for you and me – to die for our sins!

Many religions cannot accept this – like Islam, which denies the Cross and the Resurrection of Christ Jesus –  many people and religious systems deny this – but, we proclaim what GOD has declared – I, dear one, deserved Hell – I deserved to die for my own sins upon the very Cross that Jesus embrace in Mercy and Love for you and me!

The night of the Cross dear soul – that is what I deserve and deserved!

O, for a tongue in this silence to weep out in Love my Love for the GOD who became this Man, Christ Jesus – the GOD-Man who Loved (Loves now) you and me so much to demonstrate His Mercy-Love toward you and me upon the Cross!

There are many religions – but there is no Faith like the Faith that proclaims the Cross of Jesus!

GOD breaks through to break the chains of our sins through His holy Cross.

O, GOD come to our assistance – O, LORD, make haste to help us.

The nation, the world – all of us – we are in the deepest need to receive the Risen LORD Jesus Christ – the One who died for you and for me upon the Cross!

O, dear ones, the GOD of the universe has shown us His Mercy-Love through the Cross.

What shall the little soul declare now?

How should he weep out this Good News?

Dear soul, our only Hope in these times – as in all times and places – our only Hope is Jesus, who went for you and for me through the night of the Cross – and you know what?


He is returning some day soon in Glory!


HE desires to save us and bring many of His own through Faith and by Grace to be with Him forever and ever!

The Blood of Christ on the Cross – that Night of the Cross – He made the fullest Provision in Himself for your sins and my sins.

He calls us to repent (turn away from our sins and forsake them) – to receive Him by Grace through Faith – and then to follow Him in newness of Life!

Trust Him.

Those who trust Him – trust in the GOD that Loves – that extends Mercy to all who will come to Him.

Dear one, come to Christ while there is time.  Trust in Him and follow Him into the newness of Life that He gives.

We close with the simplicity of the Holy Scriptures from memory:

GOD so Loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever trusts in Him may not perish, but have everlasting Life.  (St. John’s Gospel 3:16)

Truly, truly I say to you: “He that hears my word and believes on Him who sent Me has everlasting Life and shall not come into condemnation – but, is passed from death unto Life!”  (St. John’s Gospel 5:24)

Remember this dear soul –

If anyone is in Christ he is a new creation – old things have passed and behold all things have become new!  (II Corinthians 5:17)

GOD, because of the night of the Cross-through Jesus – now keeps His Promise to you and to me and offers us Salvation and Sanctification and all Eternity with Him!

Let us Love HIM with every fiber of our being dear one… Love Him – Trust Him fully.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

His Mercy is so deep

August 18th, 2014

IMG_4490How can we express the love we have for Jesus – in Jesus?

How is it possible to declare what is infinitely wonderful in knowing Him who stepped down to BE One of us – so pure and without sin – the Son of a beloved mother so pure as the Ark of the Covenant?

We are so blinded – seeing through “a glass darkly” – and we cannot adequately express what we are seeing in part – this “seeing” of that “cloud of unknowing” – but, the Wisdom of the LORD is so gloriously Wonderful – the Mystery of GOD revealed in part – and we know that GOD knows all His ways from the beginning of creation (cf. Acts 15). That is Sufficient – that He knows.

Dear one, His Mercy is so deep. It reaches down to where you and I are at in GOD – and we are overcome with joy in the Morning of His Bright Sun-rise – the Sun shines all day – even upon the darkest clouds – and GOD brings Life and Light into the darkness – and we cry and weep and are so depressed – BUT, for the Grace and the mercy of GOD – and we are revived in His Mercy!

What can the little soul say here?

Nothing… we can say nothing much at all… our vocabulary is so limited… Silence in GOD alone is His Best.

Silence in Solitude is best with unceasing prayer – the Prayer of Jesus – the Prayer of the heart.

GOD is near – nearing – and He is always Present. We hear the Voice of Jesus – the Voice of the Spirit and the Father – One GOD – He is always speaking in the silence and through the silence that is His Silence – the solitude that is His Solitude is filled with Him – and unceasing prayer of the heart brings quiet – Peace abounds. God is always near. He comes close when we least expect Him – even in the times of deepest depression – GOD is nearer than what we believe.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Staying Quiet

August 18th, 2014

IMG_6306We move about and engage too much in the world dear soul.

An abba once said – “However much you may labor in scattering seed on the pathway that you walk, not one green leaf will grow. As well, as much as you labor to cultivate a heart weighed-down with worldly cares, you toil in vain; it is impossible to foster virtues there. For this reason the Fathers chose to leave the world.”

“When the Hebrews ceased being occupied with labors for the Egyptians, and lived in tents, they learned to worship God,” said also a wise Father— “And ships do business and make profits in the harbor, not on the open seas. It is the same with the soul; if it does not cease being occupied with worldly things and does not stay in a quiet place, it neither finds God nor acquires virtues.”

Dear soul, when we are so active in the world that we forget this – we find our self immersed in depression, because we have forsaken the way of the pilgrim – and the earth’s ways envelope the soul to the exclusion of the way of the pilgrim in the world.  GOD, we must remember – He calls us out of Babylon.  If we remain in Babylon, we will suffer the same depression and fate of the “livers” of the Babylonian ways.

How sad, when we think that Jesus delivers us to His newness of Life – and then we desire to stay put in Babylon, wondering why we are depressed?

Ponder this and move out of Babylon.

There is a “desert place of quiet” for each of us.  GOD will show you the place of His calling.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner






Prayer of the Presence

August 16th, 2014

Dear one,

IMG_6182We are at prayer in the Presence of our Beloved, when we are praying without ceasing, as we are in His Presence – we are never alone – Jesus is with us always, even unto the end of this age – and then, we are always with Him – for we are In Christ Jesus.  This is a great Comfort – this Presence of Him.  We are at Rest in Him as we work, as we pray – as we are practicing the presence of GOD.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner