Trying to change the world

July 26th, 2014


Dear soul, we many times have tried to change the world – and we were sorely disappointed.

This story was told in the desert father sayings and it has some relevance for the busy approach we have for this world –

There were three friends, earnest men, who became monks. One of them chose to make peace between men engaged in controversy, as it is written: “Blessed are the peace-makers.” The second chose to visit the sick. The third chose to be quiet in solitude. Then the first, struggling with quarrelling opponents, found that he could not heal everyone. And worn out, he came to the second who was ministering to the sick, and found him flagging in spirit and unable to fulfill his purpose. And the two agreed, and went away to see the third friend who had become a hermit, and told him their troubles. And they asked him to tell them what progress he had made. And he was silent for a little, and poured water into a cup. And he said: “Look at the water.” And it was cloudy. And alter a little he said again: “Now look, see how clear the water has become.” And when they leant over the water, they saw their faces as in a glass. And then he said to them: “So it is with the man who lives among men. He does not see his own sins because of the turmoil. But when he is at rest, especially in the desert, then he sees his sins.”

We speak of this to share the necessity to go to that “place” within – that “hermitage within” where you can place a block to disturbances of the externals that rob you of Quiet (the Peace of GOD) – to be alone in GOD – a place to listen to GOD, where “demands” are not being made of you that take you away from the QUIET in GOD alone.  Peace with GOD and the Peace of GOD come when you see your sins and know inside your soul in GOD that your relationship with GOD through Christ Jesus is right.

Dear one – you cannot change this world.

No, you cannot!

You may think you are that influential, but, you are not able to transform this world into your idea of what the world ought to be.  No, you can, however, be transformed and changed by GOD to be an influence upon the lives of others.  You see, when you are at Peace in the Quiet of GOD – then, people will see this and be drawn to GOD through your reflection of His Mercy and Change within your Life!

The Best choice you and I make is the one that seeks GOD alone first, listening to the hermit that opted for the silence in solitude and prayer:   “And he was silent for a little, and poured water into a cup. And he said: “Look at the water.” And it was cloudy. And alter a little he said again: “Now look, see how clear the water has become.” And when they leant over the water, they saw their faces as in a glass. And then he said to them: “So it is with the man who lives among men. He does not see his own sins because of the turmoil. But when he is at rest, especially in the desert, then he sees his sins.””

Dear soul, waste no time in trying to change Babylon – Babylon changes those who try to do that – no, rather, allow GOD to change you step by step by entering into His silence in solitude – thru unceasing prayer.

Get out of GOD’s Way and let GOD Be GOD – Trust Him and draw near Him.  Then, GOD will surely draw others by His Spirit to Himself through your example and Life.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


Feelings in solitude

July 26th, 2014



The feelings of little souls seem trampled upon freely

By little other souls that have come to be more greedy

In their coming of age – their growing much “wiser”

Than their older more “irrelevant” and less wise elder

Folks – folks who seem to be “holding back” their progress.

Pushing aside older Wisdom, these do what they wish; and confess

So little Love in doing so – pushing aside the Lamentations

Of Perfect Love that cry out against the potential destruction

For the little souls that wander from the Way, Truth and Life.

The heart is wearying inside – cloudy skies within – over the strife

That comes and goes again – O, GOD – for a Quiet where the Life

As it ought to BE in Jesus alone is the Reality – and is the Delight

Who lightens the load with finality and brings Perfect Love

At last to the soul – Come my GOD and BE forever mine and move

This Fellowship of weary souls to Perfect Rest in Him who is our REST.


Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Complicated humanity

July 25th, 2014


(July 25th, 2014 before leaving for hermitage again)

Dear one, there are many who seem to have all the answers in their human wisdom – but God IS the Answer in His Revelation of the Son, the Lord Jesus Christ. We were told there would be many saying – Here is Christ – come here and there – but, when He appears –it will be according to the statements of Jesus when He proclaimed His Second Advent before His Passion and Resurrection.

IMG_5800Remember this: the apostles of the Lamb were told — Ye men of Galilee, why stand you looking up to heaven? This Jesus, who is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come, as you have seen him going into heaven.

All eyes will behold Him. When Jesus returns in Glory it will be different from the First Advent – listen:

“And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him was called faithful and true, and with justice doth he judge and fight. And his eyes were as a flame of fire, and on his head were many diadems, and he had a name written, which no man knows but himself.”

Dear soul, those who feel they have the answers are not focusing upon Jesus our True King.

He in infinitely more than people believe Him to be – He is the LORD.

We make things too complicated when we think we can handle the complicated world with our uncomplicated minds – we need the MIND of Christ Jesus.

Humanity awaits this Mind and the Reign of the Just One.

Humanity will have a hard lesson to learn when the false leaders spiral the world of humanity closer and closer to absolute ruin – GOD watches and beckons the world to repentance and Faith.

We think we are too complicated for Faith that is simple – this Mind of Christ of Philippians 2 (read it and ponder).

O LORD – help us. My Jesus, MERCY!

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

What does the Lord require?

July 25th, 2014

Dear one, our Faith is fragile — and we dare not trust in our own resources — but in God alone.

IMG_6069This evening – around 12 midnight, the little soul gazed into the heavens of the Montana Hermitage night skies – my what a sight – the fullness of the stars – the Milky Way was clearer than normally expected this July night – in the distance of the skies one could see far to the East the thunder storms that had passed over our area much earlier several hours before) – how things pass – and such clarity to the skies.

I thought, “What does GOD require from us?” – immediately He answered – “The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saves such as be of a contrite spirit.” (Psalm 34: 18)

Isaiah says: “For thus says the High and the Eminent that inhabits eternity: and his name is Holy, who dwells in the high and holy place, and with a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite.” (Isaiah 57: 15)

Dear one, we make things so complicated.

We make things so very confusing and we obfuscate the facts with delusions and try to call the delusional thinking “God’s will”.

We all too often dear one – jump from the frying pans of life and into the fires, when we try to trust in our own judgments and lean to our own ways of doing this – when GOD calls us to HIM and to His Mercy – to walk like Enoch walked with GOD – fleeing Babylon, and coming into the listening mode of silence with GOD – and unceasing prayer.

Too many a soul has no time for GOD’s calling upon their life – they are too busy doing what they believe GOD “tells them to do” by following their own ideas, rather than listening to the Voice of GOD and completely surrendering themselves to the vocation of religious Life in Jesus. I understand all are not called to be a monastic Brothers or Sisters – but, dear one, all are called to BE monastic souls that LISTEN to GOD’s Voice over their own contrary notions of living. The little soul call himself and all he speaks to in the silence – prayerfully to remember dear ones Proverbs 3: 5, 6 – and never forget it, ever – otherwise you run the risk of great sorrow and pain, when you find out GOD’s WAY was far better than your ways.

“ Have confidence in the Lord with all thy heart, and lean not upon thy own prudence. In all thy ways think on him, and he will direct thy steps.”

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Quiet Moment

July 22nd, 2014

(A reflection, following a prayerful reading of Psalm 102, a prayer of the afflicted when he is overwhelmed)


There is a quiet moment that comes in the fabric of space and time –

A silence in this solitude with GOD alone where Jesus is fully “mine.”

We are alone with GOD even in the midst of deepening sorrows and anxieties –

Knowing that GOD is always near to us in our sufferings – His pierced side

And hands and feet are visible – borne for us all – we are the truly destitute

Before Him – and we see the Son alone before our Father – our Substitute –

The One who bore our horrible sins on Calvary – once and for all for sinners –

O, LORD, you alone are same always, and your years shall have no end forever.

We look into the Face of Jesus and have in Jesus that lasting and Quiet Moment

That frees us from our anxieties in time – the deeper Peace – aware of His Presence.


Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


I was thinking also of this,

A silence in this solitude with GOD alone where Jesus is fully the Mind

We have in Him alone with GOD even in the midst of deepening sorrows and anxieties –

Headin’ for the hermitage agin’ Tuesday

July 21st, 2014

Dear soul,

We are privileged in the Grace of God to head to the hermitage of Mary again tomorrow with greatest Joy in Christ Jesus – again prepping for things to come – the new little chapel of St. Antony of Egypt! We are also overseeing some work on adjacent acreage – a work of Joy!

IMG_6036A brief reflection dear one in Christ – Love GOD above all things – prefer Him over anything in this world; whatever the flesh seems to offer of “value” and whatever Babylon’s “false king” offers you or the little soul. We are passing through this world as pilgrims on the Way to Mount Zion – the hermitage within with Jesus is our hidden cloister to walk in GOD Grace – we do not forsake the assembling of ourselves together as the manner is for some, because we know as pilgrims we are part of the Body of Christ – the People of GOD, remembering the exhortations in the Epistle to the Hebrews. We exhort one another to Love and good works, and so much the more as we see the Day approaching!

Walk then as Enoch walked with GOD as was not for GOD took him.

Thus, let us all desire the Desire of the nations – the person of the Beloved Son in whom the Father is well pleased – this is the exhortation of the Holy Spirit in these days wherein we stand and walk with Christ Jesus!

Let us Love Him above all things.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

The Quiet Voice of Jesus

July 21st, 2014


The Voice of Jesus is heard in the darkness of this sultry night,

Where little sounds now subtlety call to him – out of sight –

For “illuminated darkness” now surrounds the little soul with his Delight –

It is the Voice he hears – and now, the world sinks beneath His Might.

The pelican is quiet in GOD’s sight – the Spirit beckons him to come

Beside his Savior LORD, who calls this one in Christ to now become

What he never was before – a close encounter that is to some

Pure folly in this world – but that does not matter to this little one.

He is alone with Jesus in this wilderness, which for some is a wasteland

That has no purpose in this world – the emptiness of dust, grass and sand

Cannot be countenanced by those who seek Lot’s more favored ground –

But, that did not last – the populated cites were burned in that ancient land.

GOD speaks with Love and warns the little soul of troubled times –

He hears the words of men and prophets chanting with those chimes

Of time and eternity – the bells are tolling for humanity as it binds

All freedoms to the yokes – of Satan, the flesh and worldly state of mind.

We are not like you, O, world, the flesh and the devil – for we Love our Savior.

We cannot follow you, though you also beckon with sins of varied flavors –

Those things savored by those easily distracted from our Savior who has suffered

For our little soul – O how easily we are tracked away from Him, who is our Savior.

My GOD and my All – the Quiet Rest in Jesus that we have and are in Him

Delivers us from the wretched slavery to our human condition – the mind of sin

That so easily besets us, when we do not recognize the freedom that is in HIM

Who is our Perfect Love that sought us out to bring us into newness of Life in Him.

Ah, dear one, I would sing forever His praises, but I find I do not have the vocabulary

To proclaim of Jesus in the Present – the things as clearly as I ought with others – pray.

Someday, GOD will give the little soul the Voice to pray fully of Him in the Way –

Intended in the Plan of GOD – where a Pelican will have new wings on HIS Light’s Ray.

Until that Day that comes so swiftly, we Rest in Jesus in the desert places where we stay

Close to the Mind of Jesus (the wilderness of Mary with the remnant Seed) and say:

Come quickly Lord Jesus, Come – the Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.

Abba Anthony the repentant sinner


Bread from Heaven

July 20th, 2014

IMG_6052My GOD and my All, feed me with the Bread

That is from Heaven – the Body that Bled

Great drops of the Precious Blood for me

And for all who will come to the Blessed See

Of Holy Jesus – our King, GOD and Sufficient All.


We are pilgrims in this local plain and desert place –

Created in the Image of the One whose Face

Was so marred by sinful men – men who did not know

What they have done to our Lord of Glory – who show

Through ignorance that Love has not yet touched their hearts.


IMG_6053How then, dear Savior must the little soul Live before them

That they might finally through us see intimately Him

Who has Loved us so – so long ago – now Loving still

Through those who have been touched by Him in the still

Quiet of the wilderness, as Jesus walks with the remnant of her Seed?


Live in His Love, then, and see dear soul…


Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Grace Sufficient

July 20th, 2014

IMG_5388You, GOD – you are my Grace – so Sufficient

For all the needs and desires that come to sit

Beside us – beckoning to my soul as though

You were not really Present – seeing this through

With this little soul – O GOD I am so deficient

In my weakness and my so verily inefficient

Walk with you my GOD and my All – I am the pelican

Of this desert place – Loving from afar – as far as I can

The One so Present with me – in me – all the fabric

Of space and time, wherein I am remade a Fabric

That will last for all time and Eternity in the Son

We Love and worship – our First Love and beloved One!


Abba Anthony the repentant sinner

Redeeming Grace

July 20th, 2014


IMG_5392O the Lovely Dawn of GOD’s Great Grace

That moves the little soul into His Embrace

Of Perfect Love – united with the Son –

The Day’s – new dawning in adoration of the One

Whose Loving Glorious Face I see in all I view –

That Face I see whose Mercy now renews

The little soul in Strength – now His alone

With GOD the Son beside – he now intones:

My GOD is: Holy, Holy, Holy is the LORD of hosts!


Abba Anthony the repentant sinner